Still no sleep for me.. I got home and found to my surprise that there was a check in the mailbox for $1700 from one of the clients that owes me money! Of course that meant another trip to the bank, so by the time I got home it was 8PM and that meant no time for a nap.
I've been listening to loud angry industrial all night while writing code for my new website that's going up toward the end of this month. Now that it's nearly 4AM I have a feeling my neighbor is either deaf or just doesn't give a flying rat's ass fuck how loud I play my music. This guy is really strange though.. Every once in a while I see him peeking through the window trying to see what's going on over here. So anyway... the new website is coming along pretty well even though I don't have much help with it. I really need to find a good graphic designer though.
I don't know what I did to piss her off this time, but the ex emailed me tonight to basically re-hash every little thing that was wrong with our relationship. I'm starting to think that she does this whenever she's in doubt about whether or not we made the right decision to split up. Then of course she had to ask if I was seeing anyone else yet. I told her the truth, which is that I don't have time for myself right now, let alone anyone else. I'm not really looking for anything right now anyway.. I've decided that I need to stop looking and let whatever happens happen. Anyway.. her email was the last thing I needed tonight. It's like I'm supposed to sit here and write some lengthy explanation to her. We tried to work things out and it just didn't work.. It's that simple.. I don't hate her, I don't have anything against her, it just didn't work. I just don't understand why she has to constantly bring up every little thing that's wrong with me so that she can feel better about us splitting up...... Whatever! I'm too fucking tired to give it anymore thought. Wait a minute.. FUCK THAT! I spent the better part of 6 months doing everything I could to make her life better and I'm the asshole!?!?!?! WTF? and people wonder why I'm not looking for anything right now.. Ok, I'm done ranting now... I need sleep.
I've been listening to loud angry industrial all night while writing code for my new website that's going up toward the end of this month. Now that it's nearly 4AM I have a feeling my neighbor is either deaf or just doesn't give a flying rat's ass fuck how loud I play my music. This guy is really strange though.. Every once in a while I see him peeking through the window trying to see what's going on over here. So anyway... the new website is coming along pretty well even though I don't have much help with it. I really need to find a good graphic designer though.
I don't know what I did to piss her off this time, but the ex emailed me tonight to basically re-hash every little thing that was wrong with our relationship. I'm starting to think that she does this whenever she's in doubt about whether or not we made the right decision to split up. Then of course she had to ask if I was seeing anyone else yet. I told her the truth, which is that I don't have time for myself right now, let alone anyone else. I'm not really looking for anything right now anyway.. I've decided that I need to stop looking and let whatever happens happen. Anyway.. her email was the last thing I needed tonight. It's like I'm supposed to sit here and write some lengthy explanation to her. We tried to work things out and it just didn't work.. It's that simple.. I don't hate her, I don't have anything against her, it just didn't work. I just don't understand why she has to constantly bring up every little thing that's wrong with me so that she can feel better about us splitting up...... Whatever! I'm too fucking tired to give it anymore thought. Wait a minute.. FUCK THAT! I spent the better part of 6 months doing everything I could to make her life better and I'm the asshole!?!?!?! WTF? and people wonder why I'm not looking for anything right now.. Ok, I'm done ranting now... I need sleep.
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mandarin:
Oh no, there's no money involved in my online chatting. Just time wasting and the liklihood of a shittier than usual paper for my Feminist Theory class.
mandarin:
Yea, I'm still a baby.