quijybo

i feel i'm regressing. i'm ruminating on things, turning them about in my mind repeatedly. it is making me decidedly unhappy.
yes, yet another bout of ennui.
the pressure of school is almost too much. my dreams are filled with anxiety-ridden themes, and i wake up feeling uncomfortable. i want to do great things. i want to finish all of this, and yet i think i fear success.
i have received so many kind words lately from others, however, i still feel like i'm back in my junior year of highschool. unhealthy in my depressive mood, my self-esteem is at a low.
actually, it is a roller-coaster. i think i get highs in an attempt to compensate for the lows. i just want to be at a happy-medium.
i slept all day, in an attempt to escape from myself.
i apologize to you people if i'm off lately. please, be patient while i work out the kinks in my mind.