i think i may start using this journal regularly, as a place to express my emotions to new people and those who aren't on my lj friends list.
this also offers itself as a medium where i can express complaints about my friends or people who do regularly read my lj.
i'm very disillusioned with others lately, and i think it is pushing away my friends.
recently, i've been working on increasing my own self-esteem, and i feel like it is scaring some people away. i finally believe in myself, and i refuse to take shit from others. infact, i'm becoming such an elitist that i refuse to acknowledge or deal with other people that i see as being hopeless.
anyway, i think some of my friends are perhaps bad weather friends only. some people seem to attract people only when things are good in their life. we call friends that are only around for the good "fair weather friends". in my life, my friends have always seemed more interested in me when i'm feeling down and hating myself. i don't quite understand this phenomenon. here i am finally learning that i'm not this unintelligent, unattractive girl that i thought i was, and instead of people rejoicing with me they are slipping away or are trying to make me feel bad for having any kind of ego at all.
i think my self-esteem issues have presented themselves as a lose-lose situation.
i'm also really sick of eristic people, meaning people who argue not for the sake of getting to the truth, but for the sake of scoring points and merely winning the argument.
don't they ever get bored of arguing semantics?
really, what must it be like to live such a petty existence?
this also offers itself as a medium where i can express complaints about my friends or people who do regularly read my lj.
i'm very disillusioned with others lately, and i think it is pushing away my friends.
recently, i've been working on increasing my own self-esteem, and i feel like it is scaring some people away. i finally believe in myself, and i refuse to take shit from others. infact, i'm becoming such an elitist that i refuse to acknowledge or deal with other people that i see as being hopeless.
anyway, i think some of my friends are perhaps bad weather friends only. some people seem to attract people only when things are good in their life. we call friends that are only around for the good "fair weather friends". in my life, my friends have always seemed more interested in me when i'm feeling down and hating myself. i don't quite understand this phenomenon. here i am finally learning that i'm not this unintelligent, unattractive girl that i thought i was, and instead of people rejoicing with me they are slipping away or are trying to make me feel bad for having any kind of ego at all.
i think my self-esteem issues have presented themselves as a lose-lose situation.
i'm also really sick of eristic people, meaning people who argue not for the sake of getting to the truth, but for the sake of scoring points and merely winning the argument.
don't they ever get bored of arguing semantics?
really, what must it be like to live such a petty existence?
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And yes ranting is quite a release. I have a website in which I just talk all sorts of pathetic shit.haha It is my vent.
Hmm just to comment on your journal. Many people (some of your friends it seems) many only like you when you dont seem to be a threat to them. I avoid all competition with friends because shouldnt friends work together instead of trying keep ahead of one another. Anyhow, I would say avoid too much headiness because you may end up turning away some good people in the process of shaking off the shallow ones.
By the way your neck is yummy. I think the nape of the neck is the sexiest part of a womans body.