quietdesperation

went to a discussion of the media tonight and... there i ran into my old girlfriend. my last real love. haven't seen her in over a year. her hair is now long and she was with a new boyfriend. her sister was there too. we exchanged a polite greeting. it's funny how ones mind goes to work. had dinner afterward with some friends. of course they are not the sort of friends i could tell all this about. so i keep it to myself. it is sad how much you can love someone, but because of being in different places at different times in our lives we break apart and move on. we are still a part of each othere though. we will always be. just like some of the others that came before. life is about change, but we wish is wasn't sometimes. while i sat behind her watching her boyfriend groping her thighs i wondered what the dynamics of their relationship is? do they live together? does he really care about her or is he just fucking her? does she really want to please him or is he a rung on her ladder? she was one of the most disorganized people i have ever know. is she still the same? how does he relate to this part of her personality? down deep i hope that this is what she is looking for, but i have to wonder where it will lead. she needs someone in her life. she needs the status and stability of having a "boyfriend" to bring around. it was funny too how much he looks like a busines partnere of mine from the back. i wonder what about him attracts her. he was not unpleasant to look at. she liked to be fucked hard...i wonder if he meets her needs. it would be fun to talk to him about her if he didn't know who i was. like i said...oh how our minds wander!