quietdesperation

It might have been worth it though because the subject of my infatuation for the last two years smiled at me. I think the only reason I have stayed so intrigued by this boy is that he has never ever shown me any interest. A smile was enough. He's amazing...

i just had to use part of this entry in an SG journal. what does it say? someone that has been elusive is "amazing" and would he be amazing if you actually got to know him? the only reason for interest is "disinterest" so if the infatuation were mutual the interest would die?

it seems to me that so many relationships are based on troubled premises. i had a young woman ask me recently why many men don't return calls for a long period. my response was that they were tought it from women. those that you reciprocate to lose interest and those that you ignore or abuse in some form keep coming back for more.

yikes! let me off this carousel.

i would prefer my punishment to be physical rather than psychological.