quietantrum

so i missed a really good 2 room party in spokompton last night. oh well. jesse just thinks that i will use if we go to a party because before i said i wouldnt and i did....but that was way before i was serious about being clean. and he has such a hard time because he says that he was really hooked and can't be in that environment and have a good time sober. oh well...i miss the party kids(some of them), and the lights and music and dancing, but am and safe and in love and that is so much more to me. but my lack of partyin sure has made me fat! ok...so maybe it was mcdonalds fault *shrugs*

so i colored my hair darker..its that deep burgady shade that i've always admired but never tried. it makes me look real pale. oh well. i do miss my red. i got so many compliments on my hair before. i think i will color the underside purple. well see.

speaking of addictions....i am hooked on final fantasy XI. i am such i dork. last night i was up till 4'ish playing and i think i will play when i'm done here.

oh yes...and speaking of being a dork...i went and got some new glasses so maybe my headaches will stop. they are the thick, black framed dorky kind. so now i even look like a dork!

so thats it. just getting by. i still have no idea what jesse is thinking about moving. he doesn't say anything and i don't ask. i wish he would say something but at the same time i don't want him to make his decision on my account, so i keep my mouth shut.

um...yeah. thats it. TT4N!