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****************Reload*******************

So, here I am, my life took a turn for the better this weekend, I have been asking for a change wholeheartedly for a month and a half now, and it finally came.
I can now give my notice at work tommorow, I start my new job in 2 weeks, Im going back to my old job, slinging music in a mall, and you know what, it feels good.
I quit after 6 years, cause best buy came in and fucked it all up, now they arent a part of it anymore, so I can go back, and do my thing, and enjoy my job, make good money, and break out of this fucking shell that I am in.

Ive been listening to alot of the Refresments/Roger Clyne and the Peacemakers, and Its gotten to the point where I wake up in the morning, with their music stuck in my head. Its funny how a band that I used to not be able to listen too, has now become a staple in my existence.

Ive never updated, and/or left comments in peoples journals on a regular basis on this site since I became a member, you would think that with all the fucking time that I have, that I would, but no, I havent, and it almost seems rude to the people on my friends list to have them there, even though im not active in this part of their collective lives. This site is almost like a comfort zone for me, some place where I can go and know that people are still out there, while here I sit, and become the hermit that I am, When you live in an existence of nothing, nothing happens, dont get me wrong, its a world of my making, and for me its almost a chrysilis effect, I crawled into my self made cocoon, and have been changing for the past 6 months, reararranging my life, my thoughts, my being, and Im about to break out, and become one with society again.
I go through life with my blinders on, paying attention to what I need too, and dwelling on what I dont.
Thats about to change though, I havent felt this good about anything in along time, and I thank Karma for that!
If youve paid attention to my journal at all, over the course of the last couple of months, youve seen the lyrics that Im about to post, if you want to hear an amazing song, let me know, Ill send it too you.
Its been my proverbial saviour, and I think that its cool that I dont have to explain that cause I know that you all have one, and know EXACTLY what I am talking about!
Thanks for being there people, even if its just to glance at my journal and go on, I appreciate it!

I see the lightning
From the storm down in Mexico
I see my speedometer doesn't work
I cross the desert
Disappear into the tumbleweeds
I tip the bottle and bite the lime
I hear the thunder
From the storm down in Mexico
I leave the border far behind
I feel the dust coat my teeth
And turn my face to mud
I tip the bottle and bite the lime

There is no moral to this story at all
Everything I tell you
Very well could be a lie
Been away from the livin'
Don't need to be forgivin
I'm just waiting for that cold black soul of mine
to come alive

I feel the wind blow
From the storm down in Mexico
Gasoline for another hundred miles
I cross the river
And leave my shoes up on the other side
I leave the border far behind

There is no moral to this story at all
Everything I tell you
Very well could be a lie
Been away from the livin'
Don't need to be forgivin
I'm just waiting for that cold black soul of mine
to come alive

I feel the rain drops
From the storm down in Mexico
Truck will go no further
Out of gas
I cross the desert
With the lizard and rattlesnake

There is no moral to this story at all
Everything I tell you
Very well could be a lie
Been away from the livin'
Don't need to be forgivin
I'm just waiting for that cold black soul of mine
to come alive