I try to lead a good life, but it's fucking hard. I just try to be as honest as possible, tell the truth, and do what I feel is just and right.
And I keep getting fucked in the ass for it.
Don't get me wrong, I turn into a cobra if you piss me off (trust me, I have witnesses) And by that I don't mean I'll yell and scream, that's not my style, I'll just bide my time until I casn stab you in the chest and enjoy the surprised sorry look on your face as you die (metaphorically speaking, of course).
But goddamnit, it is hard. People think of me as a tool, because I'm honest and hard working. Unfortunately I also am smart and that ends up pissing people off. Long story short, I quit. I am paid to sling medicinal mmj at people and count money, that is all. I am not paid paid to lie, cheat, steal. I can't deal with these bad, dishonest people anymore. They're blackening my karma and I can't del with it anymore.
I'm so tangled up in this bullshit I'll be very lucky if I ever find y way out. Even as I type this my mom is trying to milk me for information on my boss (her soon to be ex-husband) and I'm not gonna give it to her.
And I hate my dad. I hate him so goddamn much but it doesn't matter because I'll have to help him out and side with him in the next battle.
I hate myself for doing this shit.
And I keep getting fucked in the ass for it.
Don't get me wrong, I turn into a cobra if you piss me off (trust me, I have witnesses) And by that I don't mean I'll yell and scream, that's not my style, I'll just bide my time until I casn stab you in the chest and enjoy the surprised sorry look on your face as you die (metaphorically speaking, of course).
But goddamnit, it is hard. People think of me as a tool, because I'm honest and hard working. Unfortunately I also am smart and that ends up pissing people off. Long story short, I quit. I am paid to sling medicinal mmj at people and count money, that is all. I am not paid paid to lie, cheat, steal. I can't deal with these bad, dishonest people anymore. They're blackening my karma and I can't del with it anymore.
I'm so tangled up in this bullshit I'll be very lucky if I ever find y way out. Even as I type this my mom is trying to milk me for information on my boss (her soon to be ex-husband) and I'm not gonna give it to her.
And I hate my dad. I hate him so goddamn much but it doesn't matter because I'll have to help him out and side with him in the next battle.
I hate myself for doing this shit.
As for life - all you can go is deal with the situations you find yourself in with an honest heart and all the knowledge you have at that time. If you're try to yourself and always "try" then you should have no regrets because it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks about you at the end of the day it how you feel about yourself.
When your parents are going through a divorce everything is hard the next time your mom says something just be straight with her - Listen - tell her you're not going to do this with her because in the end he's still your step father and you "love" them both or respect them both....whatever.