queenb9603

ok this is sort of a rant.........i need you guys help.......i know i really shouldnt be upset cuz this is a normal thing guys do.......but last night i kissed my love good night.....and i went to bed......well his dad sleeps on the couch and he was snoring really loud......so i walked into me and my loves living room :where the computer is:.....and was going to ask him to turn on the air conditioner for me to drown out the sound of his dads snoring.........well i walk in and i seen him close a porn site..........this upset me........it upset me because i look at it like this :::basically hes been lying to me this whole time......he says im sooo beautiful well if i was so beautiful then why would he be in the living room looking at naked girls.....when he has a beautiful girl in his bed?::: and i also was upset to think he may be getting off to there pictures......which leads me to think....i wonder if hes thinking of those skinny pretty girls when he has sex with me?.......well needless to say i cried myself to sleep.....

well now i cant even look at him without feeling hurt and angry........i think i may be over reacting.....but i really am upset.......i havent talked to him about any of this yet.....for all i know he probably thinks he closed the site before i seen it.........but little does he know i seen it.....help me please