never lonesome alone & reads the battered poems to himself
how many tries before the finishing line becomes gray and tired lacking water you crawl just a few more steps...hoping to make a home near the side of the stream that matters only to you and where you might seem to be stretched out in a grove w/the bees above your head and whispering letters...
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how many tries before the finishing line becomes gray and tired lacking water you crawl just a few more steps...hoping to make a home near the side of the stream that matters only to you and where you might seem to be stretched out in a grove w/the bees above your head and whispering letters...
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charitee:
Thank you, I love you.
charitee:
i just finished it, go read your email.
had you been a laughter...
i cum. with you.
i've come alive
& you put your lips to mine sliding your fingernails down my cheeks and the streaks of tears are almost gone...forgetting the world around us...again i go inside you & the warmth goes straight to my brain--are we lost now? digging through the clouds holding your hand w/a smile as we search for...
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i cum. with you.
i've come alive
& you put your lips to mine sliding your fingernails down my cheeks and the streaks of tears are almost gone...forgetting the world around us...again i go inside you & the warmth goes straight to my brain--are we lost now? digging through the clouds holding your hand w/a smile as we search for...
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shawnette:
here
lunna:
Holy Hotness. Does Sean really miss me? If he does then he should call me because I miss him too!
Lunna
Lunna
forgotten...so old
in here, there is no road-map, just a train wreck to guide you from spot to spot another as you search, search, FUCKING SEARCH for reasons to keep on...moving on is a risk, yes, but are there the words that will soothe me?
is there the one who will hold me, giving me the ultimate erection and eventual rejection? maybe just, i'll leave...
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in here, there is no road-map, just a train wreck to guide you from spot to spot another as you search, search, FUCKING SEARCH for reasons to keep on...moving on is a risk, yes, but are there the words that will soothe me?
is there the one who will hold me, giving me the ultimate erection and eventual rejection? maybe just, i'll leave...
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shawnette:
cooool I can't wait !
pandamonium:
want to join me in my mysanthropy? read my new journal entry. not poetic, but i pale in comparison to your literature genius.
hehe .... beat THAT!!
hehe .... beat THAT!!
maybe nobody is right.
never could the beauty be expressed the way it should have been for there weren't enough words that my mind could put together no silly syllables that molded into odes & comparisons of Angels even in my altered states when poetry seemed just a natural water that spilled from my mouth to paper, napkins, walls, whatever could be scribbled on the...
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never could the beauty be expressed the way it should have been for there weren't enough words that my mind could put together no silly syllables that molded into odes & comparisons of Angels even in my altered states when poetry seemed just a natural water that spilled from my mouth to paper, napkins, walls, whatever could be scribbled on the...
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charitee:
I can't be that girl for you, but someday, I'll dance with you.
You'll find her, she's there.. waiting too. Without fear, without trepedation, without sorrow. She's there.
You'll find her, she's there.. waiting too. Without fear, without trepedation, without sorrow. She's there.
pandamonium:
okay . . . you're going to make me cry.
on rainy sunday & you mean everything to me.
maybe just maybe--
i'm sitting in the darkest room that i'll ever find w/nothing to calm the tears that rain in my mind in search of an answer even the smallest hint i cry might make these sundays seem like seconds & i might crawl out of bed...this time.
no more sad faces staring back at...
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maybe just maybe--
i'm sitting in the darkest room that i'll ever find w/nothing to calm the tears that rain in my mind in search of an answer even the smallest hint i cry might make these sundays seem like seconds & i might crawl out of bed...this time.
no more sad faces staring back at...
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pandamonium:
as soon as you concede to your higher ability, it will . . .well, not cease, but slow . . . . 
charitee:
Someday I'll get to see you smile.
just words to mean everything
only face i've never watched--poured over her diaries scratching madly her confusion and sadness like a million sunrises who refuse to stand up and acknowledge the day--trying hard to make senses of nothing caught blind in a moment that seems to last eternities and not knowing the glow she gives--
i love the laughs i've never heard and smile that...
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only face i've never watched--poured over her diaries scratching madly her confusion and sadness like a million sunrises who refuse to stand up and acknowledge the day--trying hard to make senses of nothing caught blind in a moment that seems to last eternities and not knowing the glow she gives--
i love the laughs i've never heard and smile that...
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rebeldaisy:
"i love the laughs i've never heard and smile that i've never seen that warms the hearts of those she whispers to and those she speaks to in her dreams"-----that part was truly amazing.
cherrysodap0p:
hmmmm warm fuzzies reading that last bit
really isn't here nor there
blacked out, thank the skies for all they've done, thank the memories for a constant cry & shy away from everyone else--
altho as i shake i could try and scream that nobody could love you better i know you'll be happy in a lovely apartment staring at your shoes surrounded by simplicity maybe you'll see me in the evening...
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blacked out, thank the skies for all they've done, thank the memories for a constant cry & shy away from everyone else--
altho as i shake i could try and scream that nobody could love you better i know you'll be happy in a lovely apartment staring at your shoes surrounded by simplicity maybe you'll see me in the evening...
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roxxee:
I really think you're entries get better every time I read them. You're awesome.
charitee:
Oh my sweet. I've been horribly remiss in my email exchanges with you and I apologize for that. I miss talking to you too.
My life, as of late, has been one big pile after another. Things are not easy right now, haven't been for quite a while and I find myself getting lost in my sorrow. My saddness is a wave of darkness that seems to consume those I care for. I guess, in a way, I didn't want to share that with you as you have your own demons to face.
I do adore you, and pray that someday I will get to see your face in person so I may kiss your cheek and smile for you.
Please forgive my absence. Know that it's not anything you did or didn't do, but my own selfishness that finds me here alone.
All in all, I'm still here. I've not left our friendship in my sadness, just allowed it to remain quiet until I found I had something to say to you that wouldn't make you hurt or sorrowful.
My admiration for you grows with every reading and with every passing. Know that and you know that I'll be here. Always.
I adore you.
My life, as of late, has been one big pile after another. Things are not easy right now, haven't been for quite a while and I find myself getting lost in my sorrow. My saddness is a wave of darkness that seems to consume those I care for. I guess, in a way, I didn't want to share that with you as you have your own demons to face.
I do adore you, and pray that someday I will get to see your face in person so I may kiss your cheek and smile for you.
Please forgive my absence. Know that it's not anything you did or didn't do, but my own selfishness that finds me here alone.
All in all, I'm still here. I've not left our friendship in my sadness, just allowed it to remain quiet until I found I had something to say to you that wouldn't make you hurt or sorrowful.
My admiration for you grows with every reading and with every passing. Know that and you know that I'll be here. Always.
I adore you.
no somebody better
save the rest and steal the last of my breath--taking turns on the wheelbarrow ride sleepee and sleazee the forgotten names of when i were a bit younger this ultimate downpour...a sadness in your smile
a bit disturbed by the mention of evenings a last act before you retire tipsy to a mountain cabin adapting your memories into moments on the tile...
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save the rest and steal the last of my breath--taking turns on the wheelbarrow ride sleepee and sleazee the forgotten names of when i were a bit younger this ultimate downpour...a sadness in your smile
a bit disturbed by the mention of evenings a last act before you retire tipsy to a mountain cabin adapting your memories into moments on the tile...
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irishandbuffy:
Charitee told me buff you have to read his writing... so I take a minute out to read your writing. Two hours later, I am complety speechless and completly amazed by you. I am speechless and that takes a lot to do.
Rock on and please keep writing
Rock on and please keep writing
irishandbuffy:
My sister is an incredible writer. I am very proud of her.
where i feel at all.
insane playgrounds
near here
I covered my eyes w/the backs
of my hands &
there the years stared
I tried to find a better place
where infinity gave me an erection &
where the dawns took longer to appear
but i've built this maze high
w/stones like silver
where reflected whatever is endless up & down and left to right...
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insane playgrounds
near here
I covered my eyes w/the backs
of my hands &
there the years stared
I tried to find a better place
where infinity gave me an erection &
where the dawns took longer to appear
but i've built this maze high
w/stones like silver
where reflected whatever is endless up & down and left to right...
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theangus:
you're right, drinking and rocking rules. I'm a better drummer when I'm buzzed anyway. 
charitee:
Hello sweet boy. Glad to see you're still around. I was worried and missing you.
is this for you.
the shining pieces of discarded notebook paper all filled w/poems of you are littered across the hallway and i'll take a match--a matchbook to them someday when i take a downer to make it thru the trip and wipe my muddy shoes on the image of your face staring at me over the desk lost as i was but i had...
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the shining pieces of discarded notebook paper all filled w/poems of you are littered across the hallway and i'll take a match--a matchbook to them someday when i take a downer to make it thru the trip and wipe my muddy shoes on the image of your face staring at me over the desk lost as i was but i had...
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theangus:
yo yo yo, haven't talked to you in a while, wanted to say hi.
charitee:
Hi honey! Haven't talked to you in a while.. just checking in!
Wuv u!
Wuv u!