there are reasons
for maniacal laughter
and tears that stain your cheeks
in trails--
when they leap from your eyes
to shatter
on the pavement

there i sit in the comfort
of insanity's mansion
drugged and drooling
my woes
to the only friends
that i cannot remember now

in here
time has no meaning
like hrs.
will be spent in depression
reflections of a pain and no compromises
sadist hallucinations
come armed w/voices
in the mind

when all the words have been spoken
or bled out
frozen in the air
i'll end it all
w/a graffitied exit sign
around my neck

and i'll wipe those
smiles
off the wall
and keep them
holy
in my pockets.
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thank you all for teh birfday words. i felt popular for teh day, and it meant so much to me.

everyone go tell x_obscure_x how much she rocks.