really isn't here nor there
blacked out, thank the skies for all they've done, thank the memories for a constant cry & shy away from everyone else--
altho as i shake i could try and scream that nobody could love you better i know you'll be happy in a lovely apartment staring at your shoes surrounded by simplicity maybe you'll see me in the evening when the clouds part and you get a quiet glimpse of the void or maybe you'll dance slowly and recall that at my worst i was so unhappy w/myself that love just couldn't shade the sorrow.
my eyes died and honored to have run my hands thru your hair felt each of your kisses and maybe nothing makes sense to either of us anymore--if only i could take your smile w/me...
no more tears no moving benediction no sleepless nites and quiet fridays no showers after seven no lipstick smears on the sheets--i will always be somewhere close.
blacked out, thank the skies for all they've done, thank the memories for a constant cry & shy away from everyone else--
altho as i shake i could try and scream that nobody could love you better i know you'll be happy in a lovely apartment staring at your shoes surrounded by simplicity maybe you'll see me in the evening when the clouds part and you get a quiet glimpse of the void or maybe you'll dance slowly and recall that at my worst i was so unhappy w/myself that love just couldn't shade the sorrow.
my eyes died and honored to have run my hands thru your hair felt each of your kisses and maybe nothing makes sense to either of us anymore--if only i could take your smile w/me...
no more tears no moving benediction no sleepless nites and quiet fridays no showers after seven no lipstick smears on the sheets--i will always be somewhere close.
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My life, as of late, has been one big pile after another. Things are not easy right now, haven't been for quite a while and I find myself getting lost in my sorrow. My saddness is a wave of darkness that seems to consume those I care for. I guess, in a way, I didn't want to share that with you as you have your own demons to face.
I do adore you, and pray that someday I will get to see your face in person so I may kiss your cheek and smile for you.
Please forgive my absence. Know that it's not anything you did or didn't do, but my own selfishness that finds me here alone.
All in all, I'm still here. I've not left our friendship in my sadness, just allowed it to remain quiet until I found I had something to say to you that wouldn't make you hurt or sorrowful.
My admiration for you grows with every reading and with every passing. Know that and you know that I'll be here. Always.
I adore you.