just words to mean everything
only face i've never watched--poured over her diaries scratching madly her confusion and sadness like a million sunrises who refuse to stand up and acknowledge the day--trying hard to make senses of nothing caught blind in a moment that seems to last eternities and not knowing the glow she gives--
i love the laughs i've never heard and smile that...
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only face i've never watched--poured over her diaries scratching madly her confusion and sadness like a million sunrises who refuse to stand up and acknowledge the day--trying hard to make senses of nothing caught blind in a moment that seems to last eternities and not knowing the glow she gives--
i love the laughs i've never heard and smile that...
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rebeldaisy:
"i love the laughs i've never heard and smile that i've never seen that warms the hearts of those she whispers to and those she speaks to in her dreams"-----that part was truly amazing.
cherrysodap0p:
hmmmm warm fuzzies reading that last bit
really isn't here nor there
blacked out, thank the skies for all they've done, thank the memories for a constant cry & shy away from everyone else--
altho as i shake i could try and scream that nobody could love you better i know you'll be happy in a lovely apartment staring at your shoes surrounded by simplicity maybe you'll see me in the evening...
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blacked out, thank the skies for all they've done, thank the memories for a constant cry & shy away from everyone else--
altho as i shake i could try and scream that nobody could love you better i know you'll be happy in a lovely apartment staring at your shoes surrounded by simplicity maybe you'll see me in the evening...
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roxxee:
I really think you're entries get better every time I read them. You're awesome.
charitee:
Oh my sweet. I've been horribly remiss in my email exchanges with you and I apologize for that. I miss talking to you too.
My life, as of late, has been one big pile after another. Things are not easy right now, haven't been for quite a while and I find myself getting lost in my sorrow. My saddness is a wave of darkness that seems to consume those I care for. I guess, in a way, I didn't want to share that with you as you have your own demons to face.
I do adore you, and pray that someday I will get to see your face in person so I may kiss your cheek and smile for you.
Please forgive my absence. Know that it's not anything you did or didn't do, but my own selfishness that finds me here alone.
All in all, I'm still here. I've not left our friendship in my sadness, just allowed it to remain quiet until I found I had something to say to you that wouldn't make you hurt or sorrowful.
My admiration for you grows with every reading and with every passing. Know that and you know that I'll be here. Always.
I adore you.
My life, as of late, has been one big pile after another. Things are not easy right now, haven't been for quite a while and I find myself getting lost in my sorrow. My saddness is a wave of darkness that seems to consume those I care for. I guess, in a way, I didn't want to share that with you as you have your own demons to face.
I do adore you, and pray that someday I will get to see your face in person so I may kiss your cheek and smile for you.
Please forgive my absence. Know that it's not anything you did or didn't do, but my own selfishness that finds me here alone.
All in all, I'm still here. I've not left our friendship in my sadness, just allowed it to remain quiet until I found I had something to say to you that wouldn't make you hurt or sorrowful.
My admiration for you grows with every reading and with every passing. Know that and you know that I'll be here. Always.
I adore you.
no somebody better
save the rest and steal the last of my breath--taking turns on the wheelbarrow ride sleepee and sleazee the forgotten names of when i were a bit younger this ultimate downpour...a sadness in your smile
a bit disturbed by the mention of evenings a last act before you retire tipsy to a mountain cabin adapting your memories into moments on the tile...
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save the rest and steal the last of my breath--taking turns on the wheelbarrow ride sleepee and sleazee the forgotten names of when i were a bit younger this ultimate downpour...a sadness in your smile
a bit disturbed by the mention of evenings a last act before you retire tipsy to a mountain cabin adapting your memories into moments on the tile...
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irishandbuffy:
Charitee told me buff you have to read his writing... so I take a minute out to read your writing. Two hours later, I am complety speechless and completly amazed by you. I am speechless and that takes a lot to do.
Rock on and please keep writing
Rock on and please keep writing
irishandbuffy:
My sister is an incredible writer. I am very proud of her.
where i feel at all.
insane playgrounds
near here
I covered my eyes w/the backs
of my hands &
there the years stared
I tried to find a better place
where infinity gave me an erection &
where the dawns took longer to appear
but i've built this maze high
w/stones like silver
where reflected whatever is endless up & down and left to right...
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insane playgrounds
near here
I covered my eyes w/the backs
of my hands &
there the years stared
I tried to find a better place
where infinity gave me an erection &
where the dawns took longer to appear
but i've built this maze high
w/stones like silver
where reflected whatever is endless up & down and left to right...
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theangus:
you're right, drinking and rocking rules. I'm a better drummer when I'm buzzed anyway. 
charitee:
Hello sweet boy. Glad to see you're still around. I was worried and missing you.
is this for you.
the shining pieces of discarded notebook paper all filled w/poems of you are littered across the hallway and i'll take a match--a matchbook to them someday when i take a downer to make it thru the trip and wipe my muddy shoes on the image of your face staring at me over the desk lost as i was but i had...
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the shining pieces of discarded notebook paper all filled w/poems of you are littered across the hallway and i'll take a match--a matchbook to them someday when i take a downer to make it thru the trip and wipe my muddy shoes on the image of your face staring at me over the desk lost as i was but i had...
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theangus:
yo yo yo, haven't talked to you in a while, wanted to say hi.
charitee:
Hi honey! Haven't talked to you in a while.. just checking in!
Wuv u!
Wuv u!
revolving altars...alter the mood.
whatever became of him i sometimes catch myself wondering where he ran off to or whether or not he still lives with that underprotective career mother in that apartment that seemed too thin for his seemingly anorexic looking body and i was much heavier than him so i sqoooooze thru the halls to his room where as bored 12 y/o's we...
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whatever became of him i sometimes catch myself wondering where he ran off to or whether or not he still lives with that underprotective career mother in that apartment that seemed too thin for his seemingly anorexic looking body and i was much heavier than him so i sqoooooze thru the halls to his room where as bored 12 y/o's we...
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seantastic:
HEY I had that happen to me once. But it was a turtle and the dollar was painted red instead.
cherrysodap0p:
i like how you place your words
ode to the wisdom & misadventures & the evenings spent alone
you told me once..."shhh, you talk too much, speak in those funny syllables that are too difficult to comprehend and your tongue clicks when you say the letter Q and it drives me wuh..wuh...wild--but I just cannot listen anymore--please sleep for once--I need to see you sleep...you don't sleep enough and I'm worried about...
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you told me once..."shhh, you talk too much, speak in those funny syllables that are too difficult to comprehend and your tongue clicks when you say the letter Q and it drives me wuh..wuh...wild--but I just cannot listen anymore--please sleep for once--I need to see you sleep...you don't sleep enough and I'm worried about...
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cherrysodap0p:
hehe love the new pic, You are super fun!
charitee:
Oh honey.. you could never do anything to upset me! I'm just feeling wicked blah right now and have been really busy with kids and work!
We are just fine my darling.. I'll take that shoulder if you're still offering and you can lean on mine!!!
You are a wonder! Huge kisses to you!
We are just fine my darling.. I'll take that shoulder if you're still offering and you can lean on mine!!!
You are a wonder! Huge kisses to you!
rapid heartbeat why his sorrow...
Four p.m. and they wheeled him up near me in the waiting room while i read making a universe that seemed so debaucherous but at least it was mine...and i only heard the sweet voice of the nurse who gently coaxed him from the wheelchair and into a softer one that wouldn't roll--these decorative red ones that were littered about...
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Four p.m. and they wheeled him up near me in the waiting room while i read making a universe that seemed so debaucherous but at least it was mine...and i only heard the sweet voice of the nurse who gently coaxed him from the wheelchair and into a softer one that wouldn't roll--these decorative red ones that were littered about...
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seantastic:
You ever read Richard Laymon? Horror and porn in the same book. It's like junk food for the mind. Great stuff. Anyway I wish you would write some dribble like the rest of us so we dont feel so inadequate.. or how ever the fuck you spell that. ~~~~ ramen noodles~~~
roxxee:
... 
after.
so these are the dreams that spread their open sores and drag me in kicking & screaming as i search for a friend, and make believe use radios for contact w/nobody at the other end--why can't you exist and find me while the air is still passing me by? oh, but whose tragedy greater? the moment i fall from the sky--
every
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seems...
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so these are the dreams that spread their open sores and drag me in kicking & screaming as i search for a friend, and make believe use radios for contact w/nobody at the other end--why can't you exist and find me while the air is still passing me by? oh, but whose tragedy greater? the moment i fall from the sky--
every
corner
seems...
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roxxee:
I just noticed Memoirs of Geisha on your list. Remember the Chairman? I once gave that book to someone with an inscription, it still hold true. It's funny how things can transalate over when we can't use our voices to say them.
mineux:
once again, you leave me speechless. fall fall fall fall into the night jump jump out of time...
sunday morning tiny letters...
only on this fence...only on this thin wire staring below me--the starry rock GODS playing death thru amp now--does the world make sense & high above, where it all slooooooows down walking thru mud I'll make it soon if I can keep the ravens away w/one hand tied to my shoulder blade....but you're guiding me aren't you? tugging on...
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only on this fence...only on this thin wire staring below me--the starry rock GODS playing death thru amp now--does the world make sense & high above, where it all slooooooows down walking thru mud I'll make it soon if I can keep the ravens away w/one hand tied to my shoulder blade....but you're guiding me aren't you? tugging on...
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charitee:
what?
charitee:
oh, ok. good. that means quite a bit coming from you.
I'll Be Your Mirror....
as you sit in the nite afraid of the darkness as we hold each other our skin starting to melt, nude, our gaze never broken and as you take my lips in your teeth still whispering that you love me and that somewhere there will be a place for the two of us--making my hips rise to you with just the...
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as you sit in the nite afraid of the darkness as we hold each other our skin starting to melt, nude, our gaze never broken and as you take my lips in your teeth still whispering that you love me and that somewhere there will be a place for the two of us--making my hips rise to you with just the...
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mineux:
I know that feeling, and i have never been able to ever fully express that moment in writing... thank you for writing it. ::total awe::
roxxee:
I'm on IM all the time.
[Edited on Jun 13, 2004 5:12AM]
I'm on IM all the time. [Edited on Jun 13, 2004 5:12AM]
august & the cold december
place your roses next to me and walk away slowly, remember me however you want to whether it be the time you captured on film the beginings of a smile or the time I drunkenly rolled off the bed reading Kerouac and nearly shattering my glasses but not my pride on the edge of my desk that must have weighed...
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place your roses next to me and walk away slowly, remember me however you want to whether it be the time you captured on film the beginings of a smile or the time I drunkenly rolled off the bed reading Kerouac and nearly shattering my glasses but not my pride on the edge of my desk that must have weighed...
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charitee:
Have I told you lately how much I've begun to adore you? Thank you for your kind words, they mean more than I think you understand.
st_jimmy:
just thought i would stop by and say hi
just drop me a line k
just drop me a line k