a break from the normal...
it's hard to acknowledge sadness at this moment, and it's all because of one person.
She is the sweetest, most beautiful, unselfish person i know. i wake every morning thinking of her and the undeniable impact she's had on my life. I smile at unusual times...even when her name is said...and i do know a lot of girls with her...
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it's hard to acknowledge sadness at this moment, and it's all because of one person.
She is the sweetest, most beautiful, unselfish person i know. i wake every morning thinking of her and the undeniable impact she's had on my life. I smile at unusual times...even when her name is said...and i do know a lot of girls with her...
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when autumn starts again...
i wore the smile on my sleeve for the whole world to overlook and burned twelve cigarettes back to front until the tears had stained the book that rested open on my knees entire laughter at these entries and i'm remembering the times when self-expression was the painting on the walls and not the dragging of my sorrow thru these elementary...
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i wore the smile on my sleeve for the whole world to overlook and burned twelve cigarettes back to front until the tears had stained the book that rested open on my knees entire laughter at these entries and i'm remembering the times when self-expression was the painting on the walls and not the dragging of my sorrow thru these elementary...
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anniesegall:
Oh well, it was only one game right? We were not expected to win, that game or the next. It still sucks. I am such a sore loser, and a horrible winner too. But I really get upset when they don't win.
Oh well, it was only one game right? We were not expected to win, that game or the next. It still sucks. I am such a sore loser, and a horrible winner too. But I really get upset when they don't win.a different kind of season
drop me poems
that splinter &
send shards of sorrow
into the night
envelope the tears
w/o them
i'm deprived of
all fluid
for expression
take notice
of America/grasp
and upon my arrival
there
the neon signs
went wild
somebody screams
a deep depression
is agitated
& the smoke clouds
are passing thru
on their way to texas.
II
during...
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drop me poems
that splinter &
send shards of sorrow
into the night
envelope the tears
w/o them
i'm deprived of
all fluid
for expression
take notice
of America/grasp
and upon my arrival
there
the neon signs
went wild
somebody screams
a deep depression
is agitated
& the smoke clouds
are passing thru
on their way to texas.
II
during...
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theangus:
*solidarity* 
charitee:
I know you love me and you have NO idea how much that means to me.
As far as what I promised you.. I can't even remember how to spell my name right now baby.. what did I promise you? Tell me so I can come through.
Loves you tons!!!!
As far as what I promised you.. I can't even remember how to spell my name right now baby.. what did I promise you? Tell me so I can come through.
Loves you tons!!!!
left me in the mineral water ice-box
there are lunatics
in this mountain
strangers
full of blood &
deep claw marks
on the walls--
there are fevers fed
in high doses
in the mind
watch carefully
as the the black stones
(laugh.)
so will the drugs eat the sadness
away like the cancer gone mad &
screaming as it burns--burns
& if not
drag me...
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there are lunatics
in this mountain
strangers
full of blood &
deep claw marks
on the walls--
there are fevers fed
in high doses
in the mind
watch carefully
as the the black stones
(laugh.)
so will the drugs eat the sadness
away like the cancer gone mad &
screaming as it burns--burns
& if not
drag me...
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yaya:
*sighs* 
a last drink in the blue nite.
six hrs. of the saddest songs
have left shadows in the hollow
& it seems to be turning way too quick
for any light to make me smile.
w/nothing left, no music scores,
and there she stood
in silence
pulling all the flowers from behind her eyes.
& kissing quiet all the flames
she cracked a smile
while...
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six hrs. of the saddest songs
have left shadows in the hollow
& it seems to be turning way too quick
for any light to make me smile.
w/nothing left, no music scores,
and there she stood
in silence
pulling all the flowers from behind her eyes.
& kissing quiet all the flames
she cracked a smile
while...
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megz:
thanks man..I like him too. 
bsided:
good job my friend!
to a lover (that i love to love)
cover my eyes for me, and let loose a string of prose that would shatter the mirrors for miles while keeping me warm beside you & you're beautiful, as you should know, and if not i want to spend forever making you believe it and the stars pale beside you and life's light brightens at the thought...
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cover my eyes for me, and let loose a string of prose that would shatter the mirrors for miles while keeping me warm beside you & you're beautiful, as you should know, and if not i want to spend forever making you believe it and the stars pale beside you and life's light brightens at the thought...
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jade:
awwwwww.... I'm very happy for you.
a better time to cry when you've fainted, blonde
i see the world swimming around myself and the world is a better lover than the last one who made candle wax diaries and shadow puppets against the wall while keeping alive a moan that echoed and will continue to do so for years and years...and that made me weep in some lost cavern of ecstasy...
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i see the world swimming around myself and the world is a better lover than the last one who made candle wax diaries and shadow puppets against the wall while keeping alive a moan that echoed and will continue to do so for years and years...and that made me weep in some lost cavern of ecstasy...
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holden_caulfield:
I will need your e-mail address to complete the Gmail invitation process. Please send me an e-mail through my SG profile so that I may send you your Gmail invitation. Thanks.
holden_caulfield:
I though that you were trying to pick up a chick by writing that in your journal, but I see that you already have Jacinda. Sigh.
so it all seems quiet
spilled--like memories come in waves that drown me and the others as i float and segue into a field of flowers i watch the clouds for any answers they might provide. maybe i'll come to be a great person, a quiet rebel that sits in the back and makes the world stand up and sigh more than once or twice...
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spilled--like memories come in waves that drown me and the others as i float and segue into a field of flowers i watch the clouds for any answers they might provide. maybe i'll come to be a great person, a quiet rebel that sits in the back and makes the world stand up and sigh more than once or twice...
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yuriel:
i want to be beautiful and lighthearted
but id settle for being not brokenhearted and less than ugly heh
but id settle for being not brokenhearted and less than ugly heh
plasticeye:
welcome back
3:42 a.m.
exposed in this darkness like lying awake in utero choking on the stomach fluids & there are a million eyes all around having thier way w/me while i hear a faint DRIP DRIP--possibly from the brain wishing there were more & there is that beautiful explosion that burns it for a million years to come & think you feel fine but everything is......
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exposed in this darkness like lying awake in utero choking on the stomach fluids & there are a million eyes all around having thier way w/me while i hear a faint DRIP DRIP--possibly from the brain wishing there were more & there is that beautiful explosion that burns it for a million years to come & think you feel fine but everything is......
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jacinda:
I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!
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[Edited on Sep 23, 2004 10:12PM]
jacinda:
Hey you! I swear i didn't mean to erase you from my list...I was in my edit page and saw you name and wanted to go to your page today and like a dork i forgot i was in my edit page. SORRY! i am a tard! 
the only day w/o you (or bus)
I froze, anorexic, in that cold weather. The moon made no sense, infact it may have laughed at me as I stood there, hoping something would change.
Lets s start with the weather. Start simple, and work our way up, until all of mankinds problems are solved, and my bones no longer show themselves thru my paling skin...yearning...
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I froze, anorexic, in that cold weather. The moon made no sense, infact it may have laughed at me as I stood there, hoping something would change.
Lets s start with the weather. Start simple, and work our way up, until all of mankinds problems are solved, and my bones no longer show themselves thru my paling skin...yearning...
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bsided:
after about sicks or seven the holes became traps for pesky neighbors
followed for hrx.
swallow. the sights are something--
sure, i'm eating these puncture pills for the moments and looking for the open door to make me something that is completely unlike the cloud that never seems to get to that beautiful gray--
space. backwards. mail. male. i have a thought. one that will not be shattered by the sounds of the fire and bending brain....
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swallow. the sights are something--
sure, i'm eating these puncture pills for the moments and looking for the open door to make me something that is completely unlike the cloud that never seems to get to that beautiful gray--
space. backwards. mail. male. i have a thought. one that will not be shattered by the sounds of the fire and bending brain....
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roxxee:
I know how that goes. I'm a dork and deleted you again. You were on the list twice and deleted one and both went poof. Bleh. I have jet lag from hell but I can't sleep. Le suck.
roxxee:
I flew hom 2 days ago. Didn't you see the location my profile? Flying sucks ass. I want to sleep for like 48 hours but I can't. I just need a nap. But if I take one, I'll be up all night.
Flying sucks ass. I want to sleep for like 48 hours but I can't. I just need a nap. But if I take one, I'll be up all night.welcome to the simple.
why it couldn't all just end w/a smile. why it couldn't all just end w/no tears w/no music w/....well....it could have been fine.
it came in dreams first--ooooooozing like the blister pus i thought i might drown but taking deep breaths to convince myself that it will never happen and everything that i thought could happen under the lites is all...
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why it couldn't all just end w/a smile. why it couldn't all just end w/no tears w/no music w/....well....it could have been fine.
it came in dreams first--ooooooozing like the blister pus i thought i might drown but taking deep breaths to convince myself that it will never happen and everything that i thought could happen under the lites is all...
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pandamonium:
sorry 'bout the "rip" i caught hell for telling you the truth ... apparently i "buckled like a belt"
the other party is not an asshole, so please don't think him one.
the other party is not an asshole, so please don't think him one.
bsided:
oh cool im off 290,later
I grew up in Katy. And now I go to Texas A&M, I am studying nutrition. I want to be a dietitian and council children with juvenile diabetes.
SO... what do you do in the hospital?
Watch the game tomorrow at 7. Have a good week.
[Edited on Oct 17, 2004 8:25PM]