perhaps it's not enough for the sun to simply shine & the love i'll sip comes from a candle crumbling like the portraits of a time when smiles came & stayed like there was hope for even those who wondered, wandered thru the cemetery nites and days in search of answers or a proper grave to hold the tears that i fight back whenever i...
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aeryn:
Your not only cute in your pictures but when you *sigh* over mine.
aeryn:
Well, I finally did it.
I've collected the bulk of my journal entries from this site, and combined them into a nice little read.
I had intended to call it The Suicide Journals...but my mommy wants a copy, and I would feel bad.
It's not a big deal or anything...anyone can do it, and I made the book available for as cheap as I could....
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I've collected the bulk of my journal entries from this site, and combined them into a nice little read.
I had intended to call it The Suicide Journals...but my mommy wants a copy, and I would feel bad.
It's not a big deal or anything...anyone can do it, and I made the book available for as cheap as I could....
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blackbirdy:
that is such an awesome idea! thats really cool that youre doin that!! i want to read it! take care sweetie
anishka:
you are too special! 
welcome to the dawn
of this anorexic winter
where the spots form and burst
like the bubbles suspended in mid-air
a welcome party gift
like magic
i saw the morning come and go
& the moon bows gracefully for the rest
until the evening, a quiet laughter will set him free
no longer can the days be lovely
a poet's words
predict the end
for...
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of this anorexic winter
where the spots form and burst
like the bubbles suspended in mid-air
a welcome party gift
like magic
i saw the morning come and go
& the moon bows gracefully for the rest
until the evening, a quiet laughter will set him free
no longer can the days be lovely
a poet's words
predict the end
for...
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maibey:
dude, at this point I'd give up beer for a Dr. Pepper!
anishka:
you must be special...you had a thread started about yoU! nice to meet you!!!!! 
a meeting
of two lovers
w/nothing but each other
& no flowers
only the arms around you
& we walk the floor
dragging the death color
in our shadows
i love
each smile, a spectacle
when you look up
to meet my gaze
my eyes drop
to the scribbles on my mind
and the world freezes
for the moment
to hear the applause of the...
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of two lovers
w/nothing but each other
& no flowers
only the arms around you
& we walk the floor
dragging the death color
in our shadows
i love
each smile, a spectacle
when you look up
to meet my gaze
my eyes drop
to the scribbles on my mind
and the world freezes
for the moment
to hear the applause of the...
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anniesegall:
my birthday was great. I celebrated for like 3 weeks. My bf's birthday is on Wed. so I need to figure out what we are going to do for his b-day. So how have things been? My spring break is coming up next week, my bf and I are going to Austin for SXSW. It should be awesome, I am ready for a break from school. Have a good week.
kr1ssyk1tty:
sorry buddy.. it was a long night i will fill you in later
i will fold you up and you can be my origami love complete w/the tears the whispers and we can adopt fourteen lovely albino children with chronic nosebleeds and eating disorders and we can go to the park--swing, swing, and then let go--propel ourselves into the air and be the birdies for only seconds before we hit the ground and shatter like the water that...
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obliviousfocus:
well you see as long as i'm not farting when it is lit i'll be okay hahah
kr1ssyk1tty:
umm u should update 
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chanel:
Alright, so were gonna play a game of shotgun Golf.
Have you seen that article? Holy shit that man IS a fucking genuis. I think we should play.
Oh its going to be good. Well get it televised and everything. oh boy.
Im getting excited just thinking about it. I hate golf. But this is so much godamned better.
Have you seen that article? Holy shit that man IS a fucking genuis. I think we should play.
Oh its going to be good. Well get it televised and everything. oh boy.
Im getting excited just thinking about it. I hate golf. But this is so much godamned better.
charitee:
Miss you too sweetness. Today Eric took me for a long car drive. We drove 3 1/2 hours up north to see Lake Superior and some nature. It's funny how he always knows exactly what I need before I even say it. I'm feeling better, it just seems that some old demons have come back to bite me in the ass.
I do miss you though. We need to talk soon. I miss our talks.
Love you.
I do miss you though. We need to talk soon. I miss our talks.
Love you.
Dear Doc. Jewish Angel,
You can no longer be my muse puppet lingering around inside my head playing hopscotch or tiddlywinks anymore because truth be known you just dont love me and never did and someday someone will love the fat artistand you must contact me for permission if you ever try to sell a book about me to line your own pockets to fund...
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You can no longer be my muse puppet lingering around inside my head playing hopscotch or tiddlywinks anymore because truth be known you just dont love me and never did and someday someone will love the fat artistand you must contact me for permission if you ever try to sell a book about me to line your own pockets to fund...
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thepatronsaint:
OK i havent been online much iv been kinda sick
andi_boo:
and...
i cant afford it, i don't think.
i'm budgeting to figure out if i can
i cant afford it, i don't think.
i'm budgeting to figure out if i can
....and so we fell to the ground together in each others arms--wearing smiles we hadn't seen on each other in months. she kissed me and let her lips linger above mine for a few seconds so that i could feel the breath as it escaped her.
we moved to the bedroom & she started to undress me as i turned out the lights.
the morning...
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we moved to the bedroom & she started to undress me as i turned out the lights.
the morning...
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charitee:
thank you for not being mad at me. my boy is home so i'm feeling about 100% better. i think that my week caught up with me when he left.. i hate benig away from him. my infatuation with my husband is probably unhealthy but i just love him so.
i miss you though and still think you need to come see me. love you pooh bear.
i miss you though and still think you need to come see me. love you pooh bear.
lunna:
aww I love the Sean too!
And I miss you so drop me your number and I'll call you this week.
And I miss you so drop me your number and I'll call you this week.
it was dark, i remember, and i was humming Lionel Ritchie tunes to myself as i carried the garbage bags across the parking lot. there were five of them, heavy fuckers full of empty pizza boxes, beer bottles, a broken bong, and cat shit. it had just rained, and the clouds made this Sunday evening even darker.
i didn't see the gun until it was...
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synapse:
wow, that link totally didn't work.
charitee:
explain my brain to me. can you do that? i miss you again.
oh, the world is changing.
something. hurts.
something. hurts.
rockadiva:
oh my pancreas!
maybe a dream
i see you
in Death
a morning visitor
content to sit by my side--watch me sleep & weeping at the thought
the memories are what i'll never be able
to beat from my brain
drown in drink
or taint w/pills
nothing in this cold place
but the silhouettes
painted Death on the walls and bed
where we fucked for days w/no break...
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i see you
in Death
a morning visitor
content to sit by my side--watch me sleep & weeping at the thought
the memories are what i'll never be able
to beat from my brain
drown in drink
or taint w/pills
nothing in this cold place
but the silhouettes
painted Death on the walls and bed
where we fucked for days w/no break...
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rebeldaisy:
beautiful as always!
thanks for the hugs!
here's a hug right back at ya!
thanks for the hugs!
here's a hug right back at ya!
no life lessons
left
stirring
in
the darkness
a monument
to
mornings
spent
crying
for
someone
who
is no longer
here--
a flower
left broken
is dancing
for nobody
seeing her pleasure
is
drying
the tears--
the laughter
hurts worse
than knowing
the answer
too many
years sitting
with
nothing
to say--
i cannot
imagine
a sadder tomorrow
that
sings
any better
than
the sorrow...
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left
stirring
in
the darkness
a monument
to
mornings
spent
crying
for
someone
who
is no longer
here--
a flower
left broken
is dancing
for nobody
seeing her pleasure
is
drying
the tears--
the laughter
hurts worse
than knowing
the answer
too many
years sitting
with
nothing
to say--
i cannot
imagine
a sadder tomorrow
that
sings
any better
than
the sorrow...
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theangus:
and we will leave our customers standing erected!!
wait.....this is going to be a line that does geigh too, right??
wait.....this is going to be a line that does geigh too, right??
charitee:
missing you again my jr. mint.