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Monday Jun 26, 2006

Jun 26, 2006
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Go listen to Rabbit Junk now.

No, I don't work for Rabbit Junk.

I work for your mum.

Tell her I still need my payment. Double this time. She was shit.

Erm.. yes, after that:



If anyone wouldn't tap that, please make yourself known. Because you need help.

I'm going to order a digital camera tonight. I've just decided whilst typing that sentence. I need to start building up a proper portfolio and get used to being photographed. I can't pose with others around and I need to get over that.

I'm still sickeningly lonely.

Hey, I just found a poem I wrote when my break up emotions repeated on me at the beginning of this year:

How dare you haunt me.
After all this time of smiles and happiness,
How dare you return.

It's like you told me
But I'm damned if I will let you win again -
Haven't you taken enough?

I know this is hard for you
This is taking its toll
But I
Don't
Care anymore.

This doesn't show half of what I'm feeling.
You'll never know but inside I'm screaming.
Admit you don't care.
Admit you dont see me there
Bleeding my life away.

TOO MANY TEARS, too many tears.
I thought this pain was over, why am I
Dying when you do not deserve it?

Everyone keeps telling me
Let it all out, but don't they know I
Hate them
As much as myself?

I know this is hard for you.
That's why I'll never tell you
How I bleed.

Of course I don't hate you -
How can I hate who I love?!
I just hate myself.



Tears have fallen enough.

Why am I still here
Alone, crying for hours?
Why am I in darkness?
You took
My
Light away.

This doesn't show half of what I'm feeling..
You'll never know but inside I am screaming.

I admit I don't care anymore.

I admit I mean nothing to myself.

Just move on.
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annalee:
kiss
Jun 29, 2006
inception:
Oh man. I almost threw-up as soon as I got on your page. That CAN NOT be a good thing. Don't worry, it's not your fault, it's all of the lower-tabs I ate today. I think I took six total. Ugh, they make you mellow, but they make your stomach bleed.

...yeah, my boyfriend is NOT taking me to anymore bars.

We went out to eat today and no where was open, so we went to the store and bought some steaks. He took 25 minutes picking out steaks, I was getting pissed. The lady even asked him, "Do you need any help with finding something?" ...and I said, "No, he just needs help, but thanks." Haha. While we were in the store he held up a bottle of Kahlua and I glared at him. I don't want to drink anymore. It makes me feel depressed if I have too many drinks.

Your poem seems very emo.

Very emo. Lol.
Jun 29, 2006

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