little black cloud
i guess i am
mornings are so hard for me
another day
ears ringing
unmotivated
pretend to be interested
sexual deviance
numb
annoyed
tired
bored
and lost
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dj-ing tonight at the davenport(sp?), sounds like it will be a pain in the ass. i'll have to listen to chris' idea of hip music. i'll slip in my idea of hip music.
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i guess i am
mornings are so hard for me
another day
ears ringing
unmotivated
pretend to be interested
sexual deviance
numb
annoyed
tired
bored
and lost
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dj-ing tonight at the davenport(sp?), sounds like it will be a pain in the ass. i'll have to listen to chris' idea of hip music. i'll slip in my idea of hip music.
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was kind of a bad gig.
poor turn out... i feel theres not much interest in the band or any band in town actually... people just don't come out. i dont really blame them. i rather go to a club and listen to a dj spin my favorite old bauhaus songs. i think i've completely lost interest in this band. i was pretty bored actually....
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poor turn out... i feel theres not much interest in the band or any band in town actually... people just don't come out. i dont really blame them. i rather go to a club and listen to a dj spin my favorite old bauhaus songs. i think i've completely lost interest in this band. i was pretty bored actually....
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quadrod:
i wasn't drunk enough last night. thats all. 
happy thanksgiving rod.
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allegra didn't come home last night... hope she had fun.
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ryans buffet for thanksgiving 5th year in a row. aw yeah.
happy thanksgiving rod.
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allegra didn't come home last night... hope she had fun.
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ryans buffet for thanksgiving 5th year in a row. aw yeah.
quadrod:
i just realized i've been putting happy faces everywhere.
i want to know what mood i was in... so:
i want to know what mood i was in... so:
robot boy show tonight at tacoland. been really looking forward to playing. seriously working on some music for my own band... sounds pretty bad. aw yeah...
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i have the house to myself tonight, so nice. i can't wait to live on my own. this weeks schedule has been so good for me. i still feel like such a putz... i'm sure i was sort...
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i have the house to myself tonight, so nice. i can't wait to live on my own. this weeks schedule has been so good for me. i still feel like such a putz... i'm sure i was sort...
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SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIT!
I JUST GOT OFF WORK!
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but i feel fine... good actually.
don't know... might be the thingies.
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aw yeah.
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yup.
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keeping away from family helps.
looking forward to skydiving.
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today: or yesterday rather: at lunch at the restroom of borders...hehehe.
I JUST GOT OFF WORK!
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but i feel fine... good actually.
don't know... might be the thingies.
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aw yeah.
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yup.
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keeping away from family helps.
looking forward to skydiving.
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today: or yesterday rather: at lunch at the restroom of borders...hehehe.
a little bummed today, had to start taking down my home studio so i can sell the house. tougher than i thought. i told one of the guys in the band and they said "we need to hurry up and finish the album then..."
nice. and i actually wanted some kind of sympathy...
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duran duran last night =
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drove around town today visiting some cool places i like to be at alone. nice chill in the air.
smoked pot at this very cool huge drainage pipe. watched some ants carrying their little trophies.
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today: at the huge drainage pipe.
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nice day.
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drove around town today visiting some cool places i like to be at alone. nice chill in the air.
smoked pot at this very cool huge drainage pipe. watched some ants carrying their little trophies.
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today: at the huge drainage pipe.
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nice day.
quadrod:
fuck... i love the cold! makes me that much more... frisky, i guess. also makes listening to old cure cassettes in the the car that much better. i love how the sound of trains gets carried so far a way in the cold weather, and everything looks cleaner to me.
took a bunch of pictures today.
i think i have my mind back. at least for now.
gonna get my drink on tonight. aw yeah... sheeeeee-it.
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last night on the way back from duran duran, chris and i saw the biggest shooting star/meteor/space debris we'd ever seen. we both commented on how amazing it was. being the big ass dork i am, i made a wish... the magnetic fields are turning me into such a pussy.
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second time today: i pulled over on the side of the road on the south side of town. felt good in the cold.
took a bunch of pictures today.
i think i have my mind back. at least for now.
gonna get my drink on tonight. aw yeah... sheeeeee-it.
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last night on the way back from duran duran, chris and i saw the biggest shooting star/meteor/space debris we'd ever seen. we both commented on how amazing it was. being the big ass dork i am, i made a wish...
the magnetic fields are turning me into such a pussy.
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second time today: i pulled over on the side of the road on the south side of town. felt good in the cold.
got lots of sleep today... well, more than 3 hours! i finally convinced my boss that my schedule completely sucked... so starting next week, i'm on a normal person schedule. good.
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chris put my picture on a flyer for a robot boy show and i completely hate it. i hate self promotion so much. i usually try to help pass out flyers but i...
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just got home from working an overnight shift... been awake for 29 hours, i dont feel sleepy, i feel tired...not sleepy.
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feel like i've been a downer around some people, and really regret it. it mostly has to do with being tired and also to do with not being exactly sure what i'm doing.
i need to sell the house and it really sucks......
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feel like i've been a downer around some people, and really regret it. it mostly has to do with being tired and also to do with not being exactly sure what i'm doing.
i need to sell the house and it really sucks......
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quadrod:
and so, my obsession with the magnetic fields continues...
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thinking of having a second 'DANCE PARTY' here before i sell the house... aw yeah... i'll get smarty to dj this one.
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it's amazing what some sleep will do for you.
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thinking of having a second 'DANCE PARTY' here before i sell the house... aw yeah... i'll get smarty to dj this one.
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it's amazing what some sleep will do for you.
quadrod:
aw yeah... i'm off to workitty work work. 
delirious... went for a drive late last night, or early this morning... listening to magnetic fields... thought about driving to corpus and seeing the sunrise, i went about 45minutes out of town and worried my car wouldnt make it all the way. i pulled into one of those truck stops and bought a john denver cassette!!!! wow, i hate john denver... but it had 'Thank...
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i don't consider myself a jealous person... but i find myself completely envious at the moment. of what or who, i won't say, but it makes feel like i'm getting payback for all the shit i've done. i probably deserve it. i do deserve it.
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i have to admit, i like the idea of this journal a lot. not for the idea that someone...
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quadrod:
i love how in the 'friends' area it says i have no friends and it laughs at me... very fitting actually.
It seems the best bands have to all play together to get anyone out...the Johnny Cash thing at T-land last night wasn't bad on turn out....
tonight, probably just go dancing with B or something.....
I'm a little tired of my BS gig as well....I've been thinking of sitting in with other bands that need a drummer just to shake the dust off.....seeing Suzy play last night with no drummer really had me sitting on my hands....
i was out at the Cash thing for a little while, but was so tired from work and no one interesting to talk to, i gave up... i've become such a puss and extremely picky about my company.
i dont know what it takes for people to come out anymore... i'm just extremely burned out right now in every possible way. seeing such a poor turn out, not just at our shows, is very difficult for me to take. i;ve been begging chris to get us gigs somewhere other than tacoland... we're playing at the Davenport on the 6th... but i think it's completely the wrong place... whatever. right now i just dont care about what i'm doing musically. i've talked to patrick about doing something... i need to get off my ass for it, he seems interested.
thanks for the reply... i forgot people could/would read this. i'm mostly, well maybe 98% honest on this thing. as time goes by, i realise i dont give a shit what people know about me or not... except info that might hurt others... that i'm careful of.