Wednesday Dec 03, 2003

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looking over my last few entries, i realize everything i write comes across suicidal... it seems to be my nature to write sad shit. most of my music comes out like this. i don't think i come across like that in person. at least i hope not.

so anyway, today is my aunts funeral. i'll have to see my dads side of the family. i don't really see the Castro side too often. they're very different from us. theres a lot of gang members and a lot of them are not very smart. and i may be biased but i think we got the looks of that gene pool.
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extremely busy yet extremely bored. once i sell the house, i want to leave san antonio for a while. well, once i get some other shit settled as well, that is, i mean...
with all the relatives in mexico, i could travel mexico for a few months. take that graveyard tour i've thought about for years. i've photographed 3 very cool old cemetarys down there and would love to find this extremely old one i saw when i was 14.
then i'm thinking chicago. kymberli lives in boston, maybe boston.
not happening for a while though.
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i seem to have shaved off a mole off my face i've had since birth. fucking weird and painful... ha! when i took my graduation pictures in highschool they removed it from the pictures.
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magnetic fields still kick my ass.
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i love you Siel DK600!!!!!!!!! love
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yesterday: in the car, someone watched. extremely good.
quadrod:
my uncle vale played at the funeral. i dont think i've ever seen him play before. he played while they lowered the casket into the grave. strange. even weirder, my aunt was burried 3 graves over from my dad. not planned. in the 25 years that my dad has been dead, no ones ever saved up money for a tombstone, all it has is a crappy metal tag that used to have his name on it... it's worn off now. very fitting. my dad was an asshole to my mom, and i really didnt know him. he died 2 1/2 weeks before my 8th birthday. he died sept 18 1978 and my brother jesse died sept 10 1993, almost exactly 15 years apart. jesse was always kind of an asshole to me, but the rest of the family seems to remember him differently. but i still liked him for the most part. really because of him i'm a musician.
saw all my cousins today, my uncle looks so old now. didnt recognize me... i didnt realize it, but he's the last one left of my dads family.
also, today was the first time in a long long time that my whole family was together. minus jesse and my dad.
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i have a job interview on tuesday the 9th... please rod... don't fuck this up.
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today: at the urinal at the restroom of the restaurant... food wasn't very good though... ha.. made myself laugh.

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