got lots of sleep today... well, more than 3 hours! i finally convinced my boss that my schedule completely sucked... so starting next week, i'm on a normal person schedule. good.
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chris put my picture on a flyer for a robot boy show and i completely hate it. i hate self promotion so much. i usually try to help pass out flyers but i...
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just got home from working an overnight shift... been awake for 29 hours, i dont feel sleepy, i feel tired...not sleepy.
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feel like i've been a downer around some people, and really regret it. it mostly has to do with being tired and also to do with not being exactly sure what i'm doing.
i need to sell the house and it really sucks......
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feel like i've been a downer around some people, and really regret it. it mostly has to do with being tired and also to do with not being exactly sure what i'm doing.
i need to sell the house and it really sucks......
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quadrod:
and so, my obsession with the magnetic fields continues...
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thinking of having a second 'DANCE PARTY' here before i sell the house... aw yeah... i'll get smarty to dj this one.
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it's amazing what some sleep will do for you.
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thinking of having a second 'DANCE PARTY' here before i sell the house... aw yeah... i'll get smarty to dj this one.
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it's amazing what some sleep will do for you.
quadrod:
aw yeah... i'm off to workitty work work. 
delirious... went for a drive late last night, or early this morning... listening to magnetic fields... thought about driving to corpus and seeing the sunrise, i went about 45minutes out of town and worried my car wouldnt make it all the way. i pulled into one of those truck stops and bought a john denver cassette!!!! wow, i hate john denver... but it had 'Thank...
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i don't consider myself a jealous person... but i find myself completely envious at the moment. of what or who, i won't say, but it makes feel like i'm getting payback for all the shit i've done. i probably deserve it. i do deserve it.
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i have to admit, i like the idea of this journal a lot. not for the idea that someone...
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i have to admit, i like the idea of this journal a lot. not for the idea that someone...
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quadrod:
i love how in the 'friends' area it says i have no friends and it laughs at me... very fitting actually.
tuesday nite... tomorrow i work an over night shift, so i'm gonna try to stay up as late as i can tonight and sleep tomorrow during the day. i'm already sleepy and it's only 9pm. shit shit shit. i hate this job. bars will keep me busy till 2am, then what? tuesday nite in san antonio... yup... nothing to do.
today: in line at the...
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today: in line at the...
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quadrod:
i am a fucking moron.
crap i'm so tired... was worried about a friend and dropped by un-invited... hope it was ok, i just wanted to make sure she was ok... seeing her was good, even for such a quick visit.
i need to sit down and write 30 minutes worth of music for an upcoming show... i'm such a dumbass for getting myself into this thing. i'm thinking of...
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i need to sit down and write 30 minutes worth of music for an upcoming show... i'm such a dumbass for getting myself into this thing. i'm thinking of...
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wow... mushrooms and dancing, dancing, dancing.
so, i'm getting a divorce, 12 year marriage, blah etc... no kids... we broke up 6 months ago... but i just told my mom about it and she hates me now. she loves my wife and can't believe i'm doing this to her. it was totally my decision... i feel like shit all over again. i had felt like...
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so, i'm getting a divorce, 12 year marriage, blah etc... no kids... we broke up 6 months ago... but i just told my mom about it and she hates me now. she loves my wife and can't believe i'm doing this to her. it was totally my decision... i feel like shit all over again. i had felt like...
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quadrod:
on the topic of my mom making me feel shitty... it's her talent... like most moms i guess. when i was fourteen, i drove her to the grocery store, when we get there she tells me, "stay in the car, i don't want anyone to know your my son."
i think about that often, i suppose i don't really believe i will ever have a good relationship with a girl now... i'm always waiting for them to tell me they're tired or embarrassed of me.
i think about that often, i suppose i don't really believe i will ever have a good relationship with a girl now... i'm always waiting for them to tell me they're tired or embarrassed of me.
autoregressive:
welcome..
i was thinking that my first real sexual experience with a girl was me fingering her at her dads while he was in the next room making us sandwiches... the door was open and he could have busted us so easily, i was so turned on... i guess thats where i started my wanting to get busted.
today: behind the tool shed, i'm sure my...
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today: behind the tool shed, i'm sure my...
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xaqary:
your in the group
so... i've maintained some form of buzz for the last 3 days, feeling pretty ok. funny, but thats exactly when i started to recieve very x-rated pics from a girl i've been talking to for 4 months from some message board i no longer visit... the pics include her peeing her panties, peeing a stream like 3 feet in the air, fucking herself with a...
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