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buhuuu, this is not working out. Lat nite could not get sleep at all; First was thinking of my brother and the news and just turning around in mu bed for hours. The when I finally fell asleep started seeing all these strange dreams like night before and woke up all the time. Of course today I was extremely tired the whole day. At 6pm I decided to go to bed and sleep until next morning but woke up at 9pm and now Im not tired at all. argh

Night before I saw these dreams about murders and serial killers..scary and last nite something else not nice...I saw a dream that I met a really great guy on the internet. From the moment we started to talk everything was just perfect and we got along like we known each other always. I was like in heaven and really liked this guy. So after only 1h we spoke to each other we decided to meet in front of Anttila in Jyvskyl(ok...this doesnt sound very cool=) I was few minutes late as usual. As I walked towards the meeting place I immediately recognised who was standing there I just walked past and said hi and asked how you are doing. I walked away and never told you it was me who you were supposed to meet. Just went home and felt really bad.. What the fuck does this dream mean. I wanna get over this, I dont wanna think that we get along well, I dont wanna think about you, I dont wanna think I still like you, I dont wanna think how much it hurt last spring, I dont wanna think I will see you this summer again...I dont wanna think because it still hurts and will hurt.