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In a way that is difficult to explain, I feel like I am being overwhelmed with gay culture. A friend recently came out and I have been trying to be there for him and be a good friend, and it's kind of getting to me. After tomorrow, I'll have gone to gay bars 3 of the past 9 nights. I don't like it when I'm called a faghag. I think it's derogatory and it makes me feel like a hag, which is a shitty thing to feel like, and it's calling my friend a fag which I am not okay with.
There are a lot of factors and stuff, but it's craziness. I feel like I need to go out with girl friends and just be with girl friends and talk about boys with them, and I want to go out with straight guys. And then make out with them. And cuddle.


Also, I am in a really stupid facebook fight with a friend of a friend, via comments on our mutual friends status and it's fucking ridiculous. I don't know why I'm letting this stupid kid get to me, but he is. He is so rude and for no reason. I say something nice to my friend, and this kid will post after me calling me a stupid cunt or saying that what I have said is retarded. He's a 21 year old that I can guarantee has never seen boobs in real life and he was apparently raised without any manners or tact. I want to punch him in the fucking balls.


And if we're just listing things that are ruining my night, I have been talking to a few people on OkCupid and now none of them are writing back. So I must have done something shitty that made them decide that further communication with me would be terrible. Wtf.