My housing plans for August fell through and now it looks like I'm going to be homeless in CA. My brother was going to move out of our house so I could live there, but instead of spending his money on a new place for himself he bought a boat. So he has our house and a boat, and I am freaking out about being homeless.
Also, this shit with Kevin isn't getting any easier. I miss him. Not just like "I miss spending time with him" but more like "I miss when he was still Kevin". I don't know who he is anymore. He said that whenever I wanted, he would be here to talk... but he can't even shoot the breeze with me anymore. I'm so afraid to strike up conversation with him because I'm scared that it'll have something to do with his new lady. Like his facebook says that he wishes he were in Arizona... I wanted to be like "Arizona. God lord, why?" but what if she's in Arizona right now and he misses her? I don't want to hear about that shit. Plus, if a situation arises where he would mention his girlfriend, he instead says "nothing". Which makes conversations difficult. Like "Oh Kev, what did you do the past month when we weren't talking to eachother?" "Oh nothing". Bullshit. He used to tell me funny little stories about work and stuff and now I get one word answers. I miss having him as my friend. Now that he has this new girl to fuck he doesn't need me. And it's bullshit. We weren't a couple, and he would still call me and complain about work and stuff. Now I've just been discarded because I've been rendered unnecessary.
I really, really, really hope that something terrible happens to their relationship soon. I hope he gets bored with her 18 year old ways and the fact that she lives an hour away. And I hope it happens SOON.
I'm like, nobody to you, and you're just the girl who had someone fuck up highlights on her strawberries and i wanted to come tell you that those can be easily fixed, but I'm still like wtf?! did this artist want warty berries??? anyway, I wish you good luck with that.
But, again, from some random stranger.
I will spoiler this cause it's kind of long, but I hate messages...
You are so much better than friends like these. Boys are retarded most of the time, so you can't really blame him. it sucks being thrown out of someone's life and feeling a little bit like a shell, but you gotta put on your strong face and flex your muscles and not let people get you down.
Especially when friends ignore you for their bf's/gfs.
Sorry if this seems a little, weird?? but I spend most of my life having guys as friends only to have them bail on me completely when a girl comes along. a lot of it also has to do with the girl, a lot of them are craaaazy.
but you deserve to have people around you to make you happy, so try not to dwell.
i might be out of line, but i swear i've typed that paragraph before and i could feel the emotions. hope you're okay
But, again, from some random stranger.
I will spoiler this cause it's kind of long, but I hate messages...
You are so much better than friends like these. Boys are retarded most of the time, so you can't really blame him. it sucks being thrown out of someone's life and feeling a little bit like a shell, but you gotta put on your strong face and flex your muscles and not let people get you down.
Especially when friends ignore you for their bf's/gfs.
Sorry if this seems a little, weird?? but I spend most of my life having guys as friends only to have them bail on me completely when a girl comes along. a lot of it also has to do with the girl, a lot of them are craaaazy.
but you deserve to have people around you to make you happy, so try not to dwell.
i might be out of line, but i swear i've typed that paragraph before and i could feel the emotions. hope you're okay