pyrhhus

I wish I could write. Words have an extraordinary power that transcends the boundaries of action and thought by inspiring both simultaneously. Yet they do not come, or if they do they lack the required elegance and panache to bear any measurable fruit. One day maybe...

Some people like spring because it is a time of renewal. The world awakens from its slumber into a...
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Yes, I have problems showing emotion. Logic has predictable outcomes, I know what will happen when I enter into a debate with someone. Exchanges in which emotion is involved do not lead to foreseeable outcomes, which is why I tend to avoid them, but not really on purpose; It's a knee-jerk reaction by now. For this I apologize. Believe me there are many times many...
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I want to be social, I really do. One could even argue that in a college environment I don't have a choice in the matter. All the same, I'm a 22 year-old freshman living amongst upper class men with well-formed social networks or freshmen who are still adjusting to life away from home, especially the availability of alcohol and the notion it might be OK...
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I had an epiphanic discovery today, well, perhaps more of a diagnosis. Persons with seasonal affective disorder suffer depressed moods due to a lack of sunlight. I am the same way except with music. If I don't get enough music in my day I tend to feel worse. This is a good thing to know I think.

Desperation: Writing in a public journal that you know full well no one will read, but writing nonetheless in the thin hope of alleviating slightly the feelings of utter loneliness. I realize fully how pathetic I am, but continue onward as I know of nothing else to do.

Musings: (Most of these don't make much sense out of context, but I am mostly writing them...
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Finally got around to prioritizing favorite SGs. Also decided I am way to lazy to bother with favorite pics, there are far too many, but I did leave the one of Elara as that is the picture that got me to join SG in the first place.

Lists continued:

Punctuation Marks
1. semicolon
2. elipses
3. upside-down exclamation point
4. dash (not hyphen)
5. period

Rhythms (this one is in order)
1. quarter note triplet
2. syncopated eighth note
3. alternated quarter note and eighth note triplet
4. dotted eighth note
5. sixteen tied whole notes

Well, I might as well use it since I'm paying for it, so I'm going to use this to house a series of Top Five lists. I have many interests and I feel it's time to get my brain in order and make some definite judgments on exactly what I like and don't like (subject to change of course). All lists will be in no...
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I've been in this job for two months now and I've been in a rut since the fourth day. Now I understand why so many people do drugs. It's a question of how far one is willing to go not to be bored.

Note to all women: intelligence is a must, good looks can never hurt, a sense of humor is good, but technical ablility is in another category altogether. If you really want to turn a guy on, learn how to fix an engine.


...and by "a guy" I mean me. I guess I'm a practicalist at heart. That is, if an ability/positive trait yields no real-world...
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Revelation: It is tough to journal your thoughts when you don't want to be thinking them in the first place.

One of these days someone is going to figure out that when you say something and I respond with "something like that" I am blowing you off. That will be a sad day.