pyratwilly

ahhhh welcome back to the normal flow of things y'all.

I don't know why I felt particularly compelled to vent my bile in this forum for the last two entries, but back to the normal journal. Hopefully those kinds of entries will be few and far between - or put somewhere else - or not? Did you like those? Let me know- I can certainly come here and type when I get angry or down or whatever.

I'm currently being assailed by things I have no desire for - namely, sourceless hostility, and strange dreams.

I'm not sure what I'm angry at, but I can feel the hostility brewing in me, just waiting for a couple more things to come along, waiting for the straw that'll break my back. I just wish I knew why. Inasmuch as there is so much beauty in the world, there's also a lot of ugliness and stupidity - I think maybe that's what's getting to me at moment.

Dreams - whew. Never again will I take that generic Tylenol PM stuff. I haven't had dreams that messed up for a long time. Not really worth paraphrasing at this point, but even though I slept well last night, I didn't - due to dreams. Enough said.

I also feel kinda dirty - but not like "I need a shower" dirty. More like I need to do SOMETHING to change things. I don't know precisely what it is that needs to be done, but I do know I'm really looking forward to it raining. I'm sure I'll regret this sentiment come midwinter, but for now, bring on the rain. This summer seems exceptionally long for some reason, and I'm ready for it to end, if only for it to be winter.

for now, I'm off to read more. Palahniuk calls...