5/11/12
As it turns out she has been following me on tumblr. She said, I saw that you cut your hair. I asked her where she would have seen that, knowing that I only posted it on facebook and tumblr. She told me that she saw it on tumblr.
I acted surprised that she would still check that, she said Of course I check it, I still want to know what is going on in your life. I didnt say this but when I broke up with R I didnt check any of her stuff, heck I even went one further and stopped following her on twitter. It wasnt to be mean, I just didnt care. R was fun, but it never really meant anything. I was with someone new and that is where all of my energy was/is focused.
Another thing I would never ever say to someone I broke up with is, I miss you and think about you every day. I could maybe have seen it as bs if I would have said it first but she just said it out of a moment of silence. Of course I reciprocated and dumbly told her that I think about her every morning when I wake up, and every night before I go to sleep which may have been too much, but in actuality is a downplayed reality.
I just wish I had a crystal ball so I could see where all of this was going. I told her no matter what I was doing, where I was, or who I was with when she felt she wanted to come back that I wanted her to let me know. She hesitated at first asking what if I was at a point where I didnt want her anymore?
I told her I didnt ever see that happening and no matter what I wanted her to at least give me the choice to say yes or no, and told her to promise me she would. She promised and said she would. I just really hope she wants to come back someday and if she does it wasnt an empty promise.
When I ended the conversation I think I told you that I had told her that I didnt expect her to reciprocate and I would understand if she didnt but that I loved her. She responded back through a cracking voice saying she loved me too. I dont know why her voice cracked when she said it, but it I heard it.
New Years
As it turns out she has been following me on tumblr. She said, I saw that you cut your hair. I asked her where she would have seen that, knowing that I only posted it on facebook and tumblr. She told me that she saw it on tumblr.
I acted surprised that she would still check that, she said Of course I check it, I still want to know what is going on in your life. I didnt say this but when I broke up with R I didnt check any of her stuff, heck I even went one further and stopped following her on twitter. It wasnt to be mean, I just didnt care. R was fun, but it never really meant anything. I was with someone new and that is where all of my energy was/is focused.
Another thing I would never ever say to someone I broke up with is, I miss you and think about you every day. I could maybe have seen it as bs if I would have said it first but she just said it out of a moment of silence. Of course I reciprocated and dumbly told her that I think about her every morning when I wake up, and every night before I go to sleep which may have been too much, but in actuality is a downplayed reality.
I just wish I had a crystal ball so I could see where all of this was going. I told her no matter what I was doing, where I was, or who I was with when she felt she wanted to come back that I wanted her to let me know. She hesitated at first asking what if I was at a point where I didnt want her anymore?
I told her I didnt ever see that happening and no matter what I wanted her to at least give me the choice to say yes or no, and told her to promise me she would. She promised and said she would. I just really hope she wants to come back someday and if she does it wasnt an empty promise.
When I ended the conversation I think I told you that I had told her that I didnt expect her to reciprocate and I would understand if she didnt but that I loved her. She responded back through a cracking voice saying she loved me too. I dont know why her voice cracked when she said it, but it I heard it.
New Years
I hope your weekend was good
I wish I had a crystal ball as well, I would like to know if some one I have feelings for feels the same way, it is hard because I dont get to see her often since she lives so far away.