I am going to post the journals I have been writing in the order I have been writing them. I don't write them everyday so this will give a chance for me to catch up.
5/1/12
Today is the second day with absolutely no contact. To have someone be so important to you and think that you are important to them and then not hear from them at all makes me feel worthless.
I mean we use to didn't even go to sleep at night with texting each other good night and I love you. I really just feel abandoned and forgotten about. Like the last year of her life and everything I did for her, and everything I meant to her means nothing.
Even if I could move on why would I want to? I mean I dont know if I buy into the whole, It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I say that because if you have truly loved and lost I dont see how anything could ever be truly fulfilling again. Not to mention, knowing that it can all end at the drop of a hat, why would I do that to myself again?
I am by no means saying I wish I would have never known Laura because now that I do, I would never want that taken away from me. And maybe that is what it means. I just wish I knew she was thinking about me and missing me, even just a fraction as much as I am missing her and thinking about her.
5/1/12
Today is the second day with absolutely no contact. To have someone be so important to you and think that you are important to them and then not hear from them at all makes me feel worthless.
I mean we use to didn't even go to sleep at night with texting each other good night and I love you. I really just feel abandoned and forgotten about. Like the last year of her life and everything I did for her, and everything I meant to her means nothing.
Even if I could move on why would I want to? I mean I dont know if I buy into the whole, It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I say that because if you have truly loved and lost I dont see how anything could ever be truly fulfilling again. Not to mention, knowing that it can all end at the drop of a hat, why would I do that to myself again?
I am by no means saying I wish I would have never known Laura because now that I do, I would never want that taken away from me. And maybe that is what it means. I just wish I knew she was thinking about me and missing me, even just a fraction as much as I am missing her and thinking about her.
Oh and just so you know the other group that are in my photos is a band by the name of Thistledown Tinkers, they also play Celtic music, they play in a couple of Celtic bands, I became friends with one of the guys from that band.