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I now have glasses. Someday I will have a picture, and then you can all mock me for something new.

The upside is they do help me see better, and now I will pass that pesky vision test for my driver's license. Soon I will be mobile again.

I dreamed last night of a plague. A zombie plague, spread by demon caterpillars with human faces. It ran like a series of commercials, each with it's own theme and its own color. The first was blue. A group of 8th graders somewhere in Orange County walking home from school under a blue sky, wearing blue jeans, with blue backpacks. They talked and laughed and...
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You remember that surgery? Yeah, false alarm. It didn't happen. What did happen is my nephrologist and I had a miscommunication about what was going on. See, he did schedule me for me surgery, and I did show up for the surgery he scheduled. It just happens that the surgery I was scheduled for was on my arm, and had nothing to do with my...
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Well there has ended up being something wrong with my peritoneal catheter. It's not an infection, though, so it might be fixable... maybe. In order to find out there will be x-rays, and possibly another surgery. Whoopidy- do!

I tell myself it could be worse. That it could be an infection. That they could have told me yesterday that there is nothing that can be...
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It's a strange time. In my usual attempt to fend off addiction, I stopped taking my oxycodone after 3 days of being out of the hospital. My body didn't like this decision, as it then had to bear the brunt of what it feels like to have a healing wound in your side with a plastic tube sitting right in the way of the knitting...
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These good times are fragile things. One playful swipe from that kitty named Life, and you are left shattered and bleeding. I think the people I've most enjoyed spending time with in my life are the ones who know the blows are coming, and have learned how to best enjoy those crystal moments of joy before it's time to find the bandages, and pick up...
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The surgery went in my favor. As of now I have a peritoneal dialysis catheter, and it should be working in 2 - 3 weeks.

I also have horrible pain around my mid section from being sliced open and a tube stuck in there. It's not the worst pain ever, but it's keeping me in bed for a few more days.

The pain is only...
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On Tuesday I go in for surgery. Yes, another one. This one will have life altering results no matter what happens. You might think, "Aren't all surgeries life altering?" This only goes to show you haven't had the wide variety of surgeries I have had. Trust me, this one's important. There isn't exactly a short version of what's going, but here's a shorter version:

The...
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Sometimes when this place gets kind of empty,
Sound of their breath fades with the light.
I think about the loveless fascination,
Under the milky way tonight.

tonight I feel a long way from home