Wednesday Jul 21, 2004

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I have been working way too much! I work construction to pay the bills, Its an ok job but I find it extremely unstimulating. I have studied and done art for years and when I immerse myself in it I feel complete and at peace with myself. for the past two years I haven't done much with art and I am starting to loose my feeling of perpose.Part of my dilemma
is that when I was in Colorado all my art was stolen out of storage; paintings, sculptures, sketchbooks, and my portfolio that I had spent years assembling. The fuckers even took drawings I did as a kid. I just don't understand there motivation other stuff was stolen but most of what I had was art. So now I need to start fresh, I just have to remember why I do it. Is it for recognition or is it a part of finding meaning in my life? I know what the answer should be but I am not always sure, It has served me well for both in the past.I guess it is important to remember my worth is not found in my art. I just needed to get that off my chest. Thanks and have a good day
sluttygoodgirl:
omg, that's awful........why would someone steal that kind of stuff? Maybe all your artwork is up in someone's house, being admired. I would feel empty if someone took all of mine...
sluttygoodboy:
Growing up around artists my whole life, I understand how much losing your art hurts. I feel for you.

When I write, it feels so good, but, sometimes I question my motivations. Do I need recognition and acceptance from others? Do I just want the money that could come from it? Or, what I'd like to think was true, do I just need the feeling of fulfillment that comes from doing it and accomplishment from finishing?

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