purpleswirl

i wish i had something profound or even remotely good to say. but i don't. i'm jobless. my friends are turning out to be either "too good for me" because they think just because i'm in college i'm an educated snob - which isn't really the case....

i'm trying to change my lifestyle. reinvent myself and break away from the people who hold me down and are trying their fucking hardest to mold me into something i know i'm not.

i want to find people i can relate to, but in this town, it's hard. i've met a few people i really would like to integrate into their way of life, even though they think it sucks...i see it as totally amazing.

maybe it's just a bitchy rant. or maybe i'm longing for something i'll never have. either way, the outlook isn't good right now......

i want to find something and end this nihilistic streak that seems to have overtaken me the past few months. hell, the past couple of years.

this is routine. this isn't living. i'm still breathing, which must mean i'm alive....but there are many signs that point otherwise.....