me drinking and it is fun, but i need more and a smoke break but shhh "dont tell nobody" had a pretty good day today , it is friday for me i am feeling good for some odd reason, oh yeah, it is the bi-polar in me, huh, haha, well at least i am feeling good for once.... 
havent fallen or hurt anything for while...
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I have an online girlfriend, wow, she is so cool, still looking for real girlfriend that i can see and touch, i can see her, but only on webcam...but it is great, and all on gay pride day, hmmm sign anyone? i am so jazzed about this, how do i do this, what do we do, i mean it is only online, how do relationships... Read More
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paulsandman:
send the nude pictures to sandmansvault@yahoo.com ;-)
phedre:
Awww, I'm so happy for you! And your girlfriend is one lucky woman 
*hugs and kisses and love for you*
*hugs and kisses and love for you*peanutbutter in my panties 
yeah, i thought that might get someone's attention...probably didnt even, lol oh well, just something i randomly thought...but didnt do
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so today was ok, worked got home, met my grandparents i havent seen in 17 years for the second time and was told by the guy i am with we should just be roommates....and that is my life in a...
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yeah, i thought that might get someone's attention...probably didnt even, lol oh well, just something i randomly thought...but didnt do
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so today was ok, worked got home, met my grandparents i havent seen in 17 years for the second time and was told by the guy i am with we should just be roommates....and that is my life in a...
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lil_billy_ben:
Yeah, you got it. Date whoever you want, dont let your roomates hold ya down.
esther:
peanutbutter in yer panties, eh? well it got my attention. :wink:
and AMEN to you being able to date the ladies you want. tell him to sit on it! get out there, there's tons of *us* waiting for you!
and AMEN to you being able to date the ladies you want. tell him to sit on it! get out there, there's tons of *us* waiting for you!
ok, so today was almost 110, well, where i work that was the temp. and our air con went out in a way it blew only hot air out, too funny, but it sucked too. took bob 1 hr to travel 2 miles with the baby in the car and busted cooler all of a sudden to pick me up from work, poor baby 
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bluefreak:
i love bananas....im just wiered though i guess. YAY for rubber chickens *happydances*
phedre:
I know what you mean about bananas!!!! I never liked them at all ever...but here lately, they taste alright. Weird. Aliens haven't invaded your mind, the bananas are just trying to overtake the world! lol
everything is ok with the man(bob)we shared a great day together, it included:taking a shower together(so much fun, lots of things we did ) playing in bed, really fun too, and then some old fashioned talking, lol 
. went shopping, got some stuff, we are going to watch a movie tonight, dont know which one. off again tomorrow, probably just clean house. ok, so people,... Read More
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goth_cowboy:
glad you had a great day talk to ya later.
zardize:
say i'm glad i could be the one to make you laugh. I'll do my best to keep them coming
ok so i spill my feeling out to my best friend and he tells me it isnt like he anticipated and it was too early. 
well, he always thought things would happen years from now, who do people think i am, someone who can put their life on hold (regarding a relationship)for that long, i have been there done that with the one i am...
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well, he always thought things would happen years from now, who do people think i am, someone who can put their life on hold (regarding a relationship)for that long, i have been there done that with the one i am... Read More
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bluefreak:
it does make sence but i dont know how to stop nothing ever changes for me. i have tried to just make the best of things and try to relax but i cant not while im here. i dont know i think i just need to get away from this fucking hellhole...and yes i am evil and insane i have the dotors note to prove it *L*
bluefreak:
skateboarding? nah im more of a bmx chick. i cant skateboard to save my life *L*. or paintball that will calm me down especialy when its girls versus guys and the guys are only wearing thongs *EG* thats some fun shit.
ok my soul is dying here, i am torn, without a single stressless thought, confusion all i know, screaming runs through my thoughts, caos the word of the hour, but caos inside...inside deep, my heart a soppy wet and torn mop head...what do i do? give up what i have longed for for almost 5 years, oh go with the arisen feelings that have filled...
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youblowdeadbear:
I'm sort of in the same boat but not involving another person. I like the other person, I just question the relationship basically. As someone else said, just be honest with everyone and let your feelings be known.
radiobastet:
Oh, dear... Much love and hugs to you, sweetheart. This is a rotten situation for anyone to be going through. I can't help but think, though, that you're still SO young, with so much more life to live. You shouldn't cut yourself off from exploring new worlds, new relationships, as long as they're healthy. You and your fiance need to talk seriously about this and not let things degenerate into bad feelings and acrimony (if at all possible!). You're at the age where everything is intense, everything hurts. Take a moment to sit quietly and ground yourself, and ask the universe to keep you safe and guide you. Just remain quiet for a while, kind of "zone out", and see what comes up for you. As strong as your feelings are for your fiance, you need to do what's best for you and your daughter. If you don't explore these feelings for Jeff, though (and it doesn't have to be in a sexual way), and keep them repressed, they will build up and explode in a most unpleasant manner for all concerned. You're at a crossroads - keep grounded, ask the universe for guidance, and listen carefully to whatever message you may receive. Please feel free to write to me anytime. And take good care of yourself and your little one...
ok, so tonights big topic on IMing has been anal sex, yes i have had it, a few times with one person(the one i am with, isnt he the lucky one, lol ) my friend says i should describe my first experience, so here it goes:
it was i think a day in july last year
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youblowdeadbear:
Awesome! Can't try that myself though. Girlfriend wouldn't spring for it and the times I've tried before it just didn't happen (Not bragging but I just don't fit.). Sounds like you get a kick out of it though.
phedre:
Yeah, I need a better anal story, lol.
Guess who sweetie?
Oh yeah, you should definitely dye your hair. It's lots of fun
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Guess who sweetie?
Oh yeah, you should definitely dye your hair. It's lots of fun
[Edited on Jun 23, 2003]
i have happy pills in my system, hehe, haha. ahh fuck it, even happy pills wont work right now. i am in a gloomy mood,i suppose just because i am tired. 
i am so tired, but i am sorry, i do not go to bed before 11pm at night, too much to do
, eek
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prnkstrss:
happy pills wheeeee!!!!
I like nibbles on my ear lobe...nibbling on my nipple rings...and so much more
I like nibbles on my ear lobe...nibbling on my nipple rings...and so much more
hellkitten:
hehe funny you should mention skateboarding... i had a skateboard for exactly 1 hour when i was 19. i was doing fine, but once i fell on my ass, that was it. i should've kept at it, though, wouldn't mind moseying around on one today.
ok i am a fucking clutz ppl, i fell down the stairs last night and all bruised up, damn i can be a dumbass sometimes, 
on the upside i got some sex but it didnt last long 
, i felt bad for keeping bob up so i let him go to bed....but i was on top for a bit so that was fun!!!!! at this...
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on the upside i got some sex but it didnt last long
, i felt bad for keeping bob up so i let him go to bed....but i was on top for a bit so that was fun!!!!! at this... Read More
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goth_cowboy:
i still fall down stairs. of course i've had wee bit of firewater to drink, and can't see straight much less walk. i'm just lucky i'm too dumb to get hurt, i guess.
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imbleeding:
i'd make-out with you...but i dont live in cali.
i know about those manic times...oh those manic times.
i hope you get to see boobies sooon
i like to drink coke
oh you mean alcohol...
guiness.