ok my soul is dying here, i am torn, without a single stressless thought, confusion all i know, screaming runs through my thoughts, caos the word of the hour, but caos inside...inside deep, my heart a soppy wet and torn mop head...what do i do? give up what i have longed for for almost 5 years, oh go with the arisen feelings that have filled me for 3 years and now nag at my poor heart and soul and could possibly change life as i know it forever, for better, or maybe not. what do i do? what do i do? 
ok and that was all what runs through my mind, well not all, but part of how i feel right at this very moment as i listen to some destructive slayer(good for the mind and soul, death, destruction, misery, everything i am going through right). I am in a long term relationship with my highschool sweetheart and have a 1 yr old daughter with him.well i also have a best friend jeff i have known for 3 yrs and have always had feelings for him(he also has feelings for me) and i just told my fiance that i have feelings for my best friend. now the hard thing is seperate long enough from bob to explore the uncharted feelings or just leave it be, please, comment, i am a fucking wreck right now, i dont know what to do, what do i do?
ok and that was all what runs through my mind, well not all, but part of how i feel right at this very moment as i listen to some destructive slayer(good for the mind and soul, death, destruction, misery, everything i am going through right). I am in a long term relationship with my highschool sweetheart and have a 1 yr old daughter with him.well i also have a best friend jeff i have known for 3 yrs and have always had feelings for him(he also has feelings for me) and i just told my fiance that i have feelings for my best friend. now the hard thing is seperate long enough from bob to explore the uncharted feelings or just leave it be, please, comment, i am a fucking wreck right now, i dont know what to do, what do i do?
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youblowdeadbear:
I'm sort of in the same boat but not involving another person. I like the other person, I just question the relationship basically. As someone else said, just be honest with everyone and let your feelings be known.
radiobastet:
Oh, dear... Much love and hugs to you, sweetheart. This is a rotten situation for anyone to be going through. I can't help but think, though, that you're still SO young, with so much more life to live. You shouldn't cut yourself off from exploring new worlds, new relationships, as long as they're healthy. You and your fiance need to talk seriously about this and not let things degenerate into bad feelings and acrimony (if at all possible!). You're at the age where everything is intense, everything hurts. Take a moment to sit quietly and ground yourself, and ask the universe to keep you safe and guide you. Just remain quiet for a while, kind of "zone out", and see what comes up for you. As strong as your feelings are for your fiance, you need to do what's best for you and your daughter. If you don't explore these feelings for Jeff, though (and it doesn't have to be in a sexual way), and keep them repressed, they will build up and explode in a most unpleasant manner for all concerned. You're at a crossroads - keep grounded, ask the universe for guidance, and listen carefully to whatever message you may receive. Please feel free to write to me anytime. And take good care of yourself and your little one... 
