hi world...
omg, thanks so much to tom, thefreak, for the cute rabbit pic! i adore bunnies! here it is for all who didn't see it and love rabbits...
so yeah, life... life is good. last night i stayed up sooo late. i didn't get to bed till like six in the morning. i had taken my adderall too late in the day i think. i've never had insomnia that bad before but man, i was up all night.
in terms of hunter and i, i figured it all out... i was just depressed and having a slump and that's what made me question our relationship. last night we had sex and it was like the first time again. i was so happy and felt so connected and so much love. i realize how much i love him and so dearly, too, and that i want to be with him. so yes, my ambivalence is gone finally. ...probably cuz i started taking a few more head meds, lol.
anyway, it's great to be feeling good again. tonight i have a final for english. should be totally easy, i'm not stressin' at all. also, i came across an idea for myself today. i really like modelling and doing this whole trying-to-be-an-sg thing, but i realize i like being behind the camera a lot more. everytime we've taken shots of me, i've been dying and wishing i was the one behind the cam. i have a good eye for photography, as was noticed at a young age with just disposable cameras. now i have this $500 nikon... i'm all set! i need to take some photography classes at school and maybe, just maybe, i could take some pics for some of the sgs. that'd be sooo cool. i already know a hopeful that wants me to take her pics. yaay!
so yeah, i will try again at the modelling thing, just once more though, and if it doesn't work out, then i'll just seek to photograph.
so yep, those are my thoughts for today.
xoxo,
--natalie
omg, thanks so much to tom, thefreak, for the cute rabbit pic! i adore bunnies! here it is for all who didn't see it and love rabbits...
so yeah, life... life is good. last night i stayed up sooo late. i didn't get to bed till like six in the morning. i had taken my adderall too late in the day i think. i've never had insomnia that bad before but man, i was up all night.
in terms of hunter and i, i figured it all out... i was just depressed and having a slump and that's what made me question our relationship. last night we had sex and it was like the first time again. i was so happy and felt so connected and so much love. i realize how much i love him and so dearly, too, and that i want to be with him. so yes, my ambivalence is gone finally. ...probably cuz i started taking a few more head meds, lol.
anyway, it's great to be feeling good again. tonight i have a final for english. should be totally easy, i'm not stressin' at all. also, i came across an idea for myself today. i really like modelling and doing this whole trying-to-be-an-sg thing, but i realize i like being behind the camera a lot more. everytime we've taken shots of me, i've been dying and wishing i was the one behind the cam. i have a good eye for photography, as was noticed at a young age with just disposable cameras. now i have this $500 nikon... i'm all set! i need to take some photography classes at school and maybe, just maybe, i could take some pics for some of the sgs. that'd be sooo cool. i already know a hopeful that wants me to take her pics. yaay!
so yeah, i will try again at the modelling thing, just once more though, and if it doesn't work out, then i'll just seek to photograph.
so yep, those are my thoughts for today.
xoxo,
--natalie
Aw, shucks...
-TM