hello out there world,
so, not a lot going on. valerie left yesterday. i hope she had a good time seeing as how i didn't really have that good of a time. i was rather depressed and feeling low on energy the whole time. thing is, after she left, it seems to have gone away. i think it's that i felt pressured to be an entertainer or something, which happens to me a lot, and then i get anxiety and don't want to do anything at all. guess i'm one fucked up lil' girl, eh? lol.
so yeah, tonight i'm going to a pixies concert with hunter and some other people. ashley got really mad at me for not riding in her car or whatever after i said i was going to. i wrote her back (it was an email) and told her it was just a misunderstanding and that i'll ride with her this evening if she wants. i hope it all works out well... can't really say i even know much of the pixies' music --guess i'm a loser.
other stuff... hmm, i'm getting fat from one of my medications so i quit taking it. i'm like 10lbs overweight now, but shedding it quickly. things with hunter and i are going well right now. i love him a lot. umm, yeah... not much else is going on. i sent in my sg shoot and am anxiously waiting to hear back from Missy. i also ordered a new captive ball ring for my clit piercing. it's got a pink stone on the bead. by the way, has anyone noticed my obsession with pink yet? i love pink. i have lots of pink shirts and jewelry. today i'm wearing a pink shirt, a pink nose ring, a pink belly ring and when the mail comes, a pink clit ring, too. i'm just one crazy lil' girl.
much love,
--natalie
so, not a lot going on. valerie left yesterday. i hope she had a good time seeing as how i didn't really have that good of a time. i was rather depressed and feeling low on energy the whole time. thing is, after she left, it seems to have gone away. i think it's that i felt pressured to be an entertainer or something, which happens to me a lot, and then i get anxiety and don't want to do anything at all. guess i'm one fucked up lil' girl, eh? lol.
so yeah, tonight i'm going to a pixies concert with hunter and some other people. ashley got really mad at me for not riding in her car or whatever after i said i was going to. i wrote her back (it was an email) and told her it was just a misunderstanding and that i'll ride with her this evening if she wants. i hope it all works out well... can't really say i even know much of the pixies' music --guess i'm a loser.
other stuff... hmm, i'm getting fat from one of my medications so i quit taking it. i'm like 10lbs overweight now, but shedding it quickly. things with hunter and i are going well right now. i love him a lot. umm, yeah... not much else is going on. i sent in my sg shoot and am anxiously waiting to hear back from Missy. i also ordered a new captive ball ring for my clit piercing. it's got a pink stone on the bead. by the way, has anyone noticed my obsession with pink yet? i love pink. i have lots of pink shirts and jewelry. today i'm wearing a pink shirt, a pink nose ring, a pink belly ring and when the mail comes, a pink clit ring, too. i'm just one crazy lil' girl.
much love,
--natalie
It's fantastic to learn that your mental illness is NOT cause by chemical inbalances, but that it's just the way that you are...
Yay for type 2 personalities!!!