hello sg,
i'm not sure whether to be mad or frustrated, but since i just woke up, i don't really care... i guess hunter thought he was going to davis with me and riding in my car and then i supposedly am driving him to boreal to go snowboarding and to his dad's house. i told him he could trapse along with me to davis but that i'm not going any further north than that... i just wanna go home for a visit, not up to the slopes. so yeah, he agreed, hmph. oh well. i had a not-so-fleeting feeling this would happen. it's alright though... my friend chris is there and he's getting ready to move to LA. he's been friends with both hunter and i for ages and wants to see us both before he leaves. so, yeah, whatever. so this morning i'm packing up the car and making a bed for hunter on the passenger's side because he can't drive either (he stayed up all night playing diablo).
i think i shall go home next weekend, too... i can't miss any class, but i want to break up with him... and after that happens, i just kind of want to tell him he has the weekend to clear out his shit and go stay at my parents' house. i wonder if that's bitchy or not? i donno, but if it works, that's fine for me, because i've been struggling to leave this relationship for a while now.
not that i don't like the guy. he's great. i've dated him for a year and a half. i love him to death and the sex is even still great. my interests just don't lie with him anymore tho and that's the honest truth... i don't want to lead him on. i'm sure we'll still stay excellent friends and all, at least that's what i'm hoping for. we were friends before we ever dated, and even having a relationship, we still act as bestfriends a lot of time and we've established verbally before that we are each others' bestfriend.
so yeah, hmph, it's all so complicated. i just wanna be freeeeeeeeeeee! lol. so now here i am this morning, getting ready to pack up all my shit, make the little bed in the car, make a second bed for my rabbit to chill in, get gas and a pack of smokes and hit the road.
that's all for now folks,
--natalie
p.s. it's coming time for me to send in my shoot to sg!! ee, i'm soo excitedly ecstatic! i hope it gets accepted. wish me luck!
i'm not sure whether to be mad or frustrated, but since i just woke up, i don't really care... i guess hunter thought he was going to davis with me and riding in my car and then i supposedly am driving him to boreal to go snowboarding and to his dad's house. i told him he could trapse along with me to davis but that i'm not going any further north than that... i just wanna go home for a visit, not up to the slopes. so yeah, he agreed, hmph. oh well. i had a not-so-fleeting feeling this would happen. it's alright though... my friend chris is there and he's getting ready to move to LA. he's been friends with both hunter and i for ages and wants to see us both before he leaves. so, yeah, whatever. so this morning i'm packing up the car and making a bed for hunter on the passenger's side because he can't drive either (he stayed up all night playing diablo).
i think i shall go home next weekend, too... i can't miss any class, but i want to break up with him... and after that happens, i just kind of want to tell him he has the weekend to clear out his shit and go stay at my parents' house. i wonder if that's bitchy or not? i donno, but if it works, that's fine for me, because i've been struggling to leave this relationship for a while now.
not that i don't like the guy. he's great. i've dated him for a year and a half. i love him to death and the sex is even still great. my interests just don't lie with him anymore tho and that's the honest truth... i don't want to lead him on. i'm sure we'll still stay excellent friends and all, at least that's what i'm hoping for. we were friends before we ever dated, and even having a relationship, we still act as bestfriends a lot of time and we've established verbally before that we are each others' bestfriend.
so yeah, hmph, it's all so complicated. i just wanna be freeeeeeeeeeee! lol. so now here i am this morning, getting ready to pack up all my shit, make the little bed in the car, make a second bed for my rabbit to chill in, get gas and a pack of smokes and hit the road.
that's all for now folks,
--natalie
p.s. it's coming time for me to send in my shoot to sg!! ee, i'm soo excitedly ecstatic! i hope it gets accepted. wish me luck!
-TM