hi friends,
oh thank you so much for all the good wishes and the pleasant comments! it's always a nice feeling to know that somebody cares and is interested... even if it is only over the internet.
news for today is... i'm getting sued!
but it's really no big deal cuz i'm going to win the case. you see, my neighbors and hunty and i...
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oh thank you so much for all the good wishes and the pleasant comments! it's always a nice feeling to know that somebody cares and is interested... even if it is only over the internet.
news for today is... i'm getting sued!
but it's really no big deal cuz i'm going to win the case. you see, my neighbors and hunty and i...
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hiya world!
i'm feeling quite stellar today. i guess my new meds are working... FINALLY! i feel nice and normal and happy again. well, not happy, cuz pills that make you happy aren't necessarily good --but baseline, normal, not depressed. so it's all good.
today i'm just lazing around and am gonna get some homework done. wow... i can't believe it... on this one med...
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i'm feeling quite stellar today. i guess my new meds are working... FINALLY! i feel nice and normal and happy again. well, not happy, cuz pills that make you happy aren't necessarily good --but baseline, normal, not depressed. so it's all good.
today i'm just lazing around and am gonna get some homework done. wow... i can't believe it... on this one med...
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syntax:
Pssh, I wish I were a limbo girl. At the moment, I'm working up the guts to apply. 
Have you been accepted yet? Or are you working on your application?
Have you been accepted yet? Or are you working on your application?
avantgarde:
That is my biggest reason for not wanting medication is adverse affects on sex drive. Man oh man, nothing will help with depression like a good daily fucking (or two).
today i'm feeling A LOT better! i did sleep till like 4pm from my new med, but whatever. i got up, pretty motivated and went and did the grocery shopping, which is a big deal for me after having felt so bad i was house ridden for like a week.
so, that's about all i've done today so far, is wake up, go shopping and...
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so, that's about all i've done today so far, is wake up, go shopping and...
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thefreak:
Well, better to take a break then keep going and burn yourself out and self-destruct. I just enrolled for the fall semester after a 5-year hiatus. Nervous as hell. Wish me luck.
-TM
-TM
hi world,
today went a little better i guess although i slept all day long. but now that i'm awake, i feel not so depressed or anxious today. what a relief! other than that, i went to english and wrote an in class essay that i was totally unprepared for. i'm sure i won't get a very good mark on it. oh well...
well, that's...
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today went a little better i guess although i slept all day long. but now that i'm awake, i feel not so depressed or anxious today. what a relief!
other than that, i went to english and wrote an in class essay that i was totally unprepared for. i'm sure i won't get a very good mark on it. oh well...
well, that's...
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honsolo:
gald your feeling better you sounded so upset before
thefreak:
*hugs*
Glad to hear it. Can't go anywhere but up.
-TM
Glad to hear it.
Can't go anywhere but up.
-TM
they need a crying emoticon on here... today, well, at least this morning was a disaster. the rest of the day still has the potential to be good but this morning was... AWFUL.
last night, i went to bed and so did hunter after the whole poly discussion went down. in the middle of the night i woke up and he wasn't in bed so...
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honsolo:
funny how thats is basicly how love really is .... it happens like that all the time
mollydolly:
THANKZ 4 THE POSITIVE ENERGY> THAT ALWAYS HELPS> AND THANX FOR ADDING ME AS ONE OF YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITES THAT ROCKS.
LOVE
MOLLYDOLLY
THANKZ 4 THE POSITIVE ENERGY> THAT ALWAYS HELPS> AND THANX FOR ADDING ME AS ONE OF YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITES THAT ROCKS.
LOVE
MOLLYDOLLY
omg... i told hunter tonight, just a few minutes ago, while i was stoned... i carelessly said it. "i'm poly." he started crying and all this stuff and asking me lots of questions about doubting how much i love him.
it's just that, i want 1 romantic relationship --with him. and i also want sexual relationships with a lot of people. is that unusual? probably...
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thefreak:
*hugs*
Lets cover all the bases.
You ARE honest. And it's not like you went out cheating on him.
You are NOT "sexually sick" or "mentally ill" because of how you feel. That's the argument of Christians getting to you.
You two just need to sit and have a talk. Simple as that.
-TM
Lets cover all the bases.
You ARE honest. And it's not like you went out cheating on him.
You are NOT "sexually sick" or "mentally ill" because of how you feel. That's the argument of Christians getting to you.
You two just need to sit and have a talk. Simple as that.
-TM
gawd... i'm so fucking crazy and ambivalent. i think... haha, no joke there either. 
i decided that breaking up with hunter is a stupid thing to do. he's backed down in the sense of being kind of controlling of my lifestyle and doesn't nag as much anymore. but also, i just realized how damned much the guy loves me. i think that, perhaps i am...
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i decided that breaking up with hunter is a stupid thing to do. he's backed down in the sense of being kind of controlling of my lifestyle and doesn't nag as much anymore. but also, i just realized how damned much the guy loves me. i think that, perhaps i am...
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thefreak:
Well, glad you're on the up and up, as slow as it might be.
-TM
-TM
hello world... my usual greeting.
today i woke up feeling like shit again, as always. so i took some ritalin to get my french homework done. well, nothin' got done. i feel better now (haha, now that i'm on uppers... what a joke ::rolling eyes: and that's good but i know it won't last. i called my psychiatrist and told him i need to get...
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today i woke up feeling like shit again, as always. so i took some ritalin to get my french homework done. well, nothin' got done. i feel better now (haha, now that i'm on uppers... what a joke ::rolling eyes:
and that's good but i know it won't last. i called my psychiatrist and told him i need to get... Read More
thefreak:
Yay coming to East Coast! We rule...kinda sorta...maybe.
Still pullin' for ya. And Dali's cool, and not just because of the moustache.
-TM
Yay coming to East Coast! We rule...kinda sorta...maybe.
Still pullin' for ya.
And Dali's cool, and not just because of the moustache.
-TM
wow... life sucks right now.
i'm not sure what is going on, but i've been feeling like shit. and it's getting serious. i'm having ideations of bad things and uncontrollably gruesome thoughts. i'm not quite sure what to do. one thing that's killing me inside on a regular basis is the rape that happened to me when i was sixteen. i've never cared before and...
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i'm not sure what is going on, but i've been feeling like shit. and it's getting serious. i'm having ideations of bad things and uncontrollably gruesome thoughts. i'm not quite sure what to do. one thing that's killing me inside on a regular basis is the rape that happened to me when i was sixteen. i've never cared before and...
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thefreak:
OK, now I'm worried to all hell.
*the biggest hug he can possible give in text form*
Please be safe, k?
-TM
OK, now I'm worried to all hell.
*the biggest hug he can possible give in text form*
Please be safe, k?
-TM
thefreak:
I'm serious. Please take care of yourself.
*motherly worrisomeness is coming out*
-TM
*motherly worrisomeness is coming out*
-TM
hi world!!
yesterday was a great day. hunter shot my sg pictures for me and they turned out great! (at least in my opinion...) so yeah, i burned them onto a cd already with all my info (i.e. social security and state id) and packaged it all up and now it's just sitting merily by the door. i can't mail it until late may though...
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yesterday was a great day. hunter shot my sg pictures for me and they turned out great! (at least in my opinion...) so yeah, i burned them onto a cd already with all my info (i.e. social security and state id) and packaged it all up and now it's just sitting merily by the door. i can't mail it until late may though...
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gilda22:
Hi, I hope you don't mind the "journal stalking," but I saw your post in the gay girls group. I am pretty much in the same exact boat and wouldn't mind a chat. My contact info is in my profile, and there is the SG or IRC chat, which I am never in but would go in if someone told me too.
Congrats and good luck with the pics!
Congrats and good luck with the pics!
thefreak:
I'm just hoping you find what makes you happy, hun.
And oh boy, SG pics! I shall be waiting as well.
-TM
I'm just hoping you find what makes you happy, hun.
And oh boy, SG pics! I shall be waiting as well.
-TM
Grrls! All I really want is grrls!
Girls love girls: There is a fine line between hobby and mental illness.
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Girls love girls: There is a fine line between hobby and mental illness.
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thefreak:
I'm a lesbian trapped in a man's body...that count? 
-TM
-TM
hi world,
i'm finally pretty sure of myself now... i really think i'm a lesbian. i'm not sure, but i mean, i donno... i've been so confused lately. it would be a good thing though. it's really what i seem to almost be yearning for or something. i want to "end up" "that way" like, i don't care what other people think anymore. leaving my...
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i'm finally pretty sure of myself now... i really think i'm a lesbian. i'm not sure, but i mean, i donno... i've been so confused lately. it would be a good thing though. it's really what i seem to almost be yearning for or something. i want to "end up" "that way" like, i don't care what other people think anymore. leaving my...
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lecia:
well, whatever path you choose, i hope things work out alright
thefreak:
Best of luck to you, hun. Hope you can find what makes you happy in the end.
-TM
Hope you can find what makes you happy in the end.
-TM
-TM