Saturday Feb 07, 2004

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Wind as sharp as failure
abuses me roughly
slapping me in the face
as if it has something to prove
guilt chaps my skin
red
it is obvious now, isn't it?
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...as Damien Rice's Volcanoes plays in the background....
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soma__:
i dunno why but i went through all my journal entries and found comments from people who weren't my friends and thought- "there is no reason we shouldn't be friends" esp. since you took the time to add a comment... so add me? i'll bake you cookies! if not, i'll send you all my love smile
soma__:
i just watched office space again for the millioneth time the other day... oo what good times.

Friday Feb 06, 2004

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Okay, so I am officially over the hump with my project for art class. I am feeling very satisfied to be lugging all of my supplies and portfolio to and from class. I am walking with purpose!

Last night, class ended early because of the weather. I was stoked until I realized that I had no keys. Went outside to notice that my *overstressed but...
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tryst:
I love the way you write. I'm really sorry about your tooth -- just know that you were missed. We all really wanted to meet you. We'll have to get together soon -- me, you, and dragonfly and whoever else -- and go dancing or something. smile Good luck with the girl. I'm not even bi, and she sounds marvelous to me. smile
dragonflycq:
kiss How ya doin lady?!?! How's the ol' toothy tooth? Did they give you fun drugs for it?

Man, I miss going to class for that exact reason...oogling. It's like a meat market for ooglers. Thats why I always sat in the back corner of classes, that way the teacher never called on me, and I could watch everybody. I'm definitely a watcher (I mean, why else would I be here, duh).

I did miss you tons on Monday. And I was worried. There just wasn't something right about Burlesque without you, since we were the ones who got everyone together in the first place. But hey, it's only the first of many events to come. And until then, I'm just gonna stare at that pic of you're ass. wink

L love ve you doll!

Thursday Feb 05, 2004

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Mouth feels better today. I am still talking like I have a lisp, though, which isn't really sexy in my opinion.

Life is bending me over roughly and fucking me in the ass with no lube right now. Dammit, give me the lube! My pride, creativity, and decision making skills (or lack of) are forcing me to second guess myself. I have a ridiculously easy...
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cookie_head:
Umm... don't get too attached to me. I don't think I am making too many friends with the Playboy/SG thing. Either way, honey I really did dig your candid pics! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE post more b4 I get booted!
fortysix_and_two:
I used to make a single mark on the canvas. Something I could cover, but it de-virginizes the canvas for me.

Tuesday Feb 03, 2004

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All dressed up and no where to go...but to the Emergency Room.

After being excited for MONTHS about seeing all the awesome people that I've met on this site (especially mah dawgs, dragonflycq and tryst) AND the girls perform (especially Brandy) I ended up breaking my tooth, exposing some very, very painful nerves, and writhing in pain on a gurney. Today, I am talking funny,...
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nucpro_gmac:
Sad to have missed you!!! Hope you can stay as comfortable as possible!! Take care oxoxo
mr_ruckus:
Hey!
How have you been since the ER visit?
I hope that you are feeling a bit better!

Monday Feb 02, 2004

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The Burlesque show is tonight. I am excited to get to meet (in person) so many of the people that I have met on this site.

You know what's wierd?

No, okay i'll tell you

I am more honest, personal, and comfortable with the people that I have met here than I am with most of the people that I come into contact with every...
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nuclear_mullah:
Just got my will-call tiks lined up for tongiht. I'm fuggin stoked.

I know what you mean. It's easy to be open on SG because it is a welcoming niche. Can't say the same for my job or school. I try to be myself everywhere, but some things aren't appropriate in certain contexts. But with my wife and good friends I am pretty open indeed. Family, that is another story.
tryst:
frown frown frown frown ???????frown frown frown frown I hope you're okay....

Saturday Jan 31, 2004

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I am pissed that my big ass doesn't seem to be able to squeeze sexily (is that a word?) into what i want to wear to the show on Monday. A state of self loathing is encroaching. Seriously, I am cursing every pound of my flesh. It really does suck to be "plus size" a.k.a size 14 sometimes. Things that look great in a picture...
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dragonflycq:
Amen to Brandy, Painbearer, NeonAngels, and all the others. It ain't how it looks in the jeans, it's how it acts in the jeans. And girl, I know you can work it. Hell, even if it takes a shot or two, I'm gonna make you work it. kiss

Whats up with our ride situation? Are we stopping in W'bridge to meet you?

T-minus zero days and not counting!!!! love
gekkeiju23:
:sigh: to be a 14 again......
i'm an 18, and i feel you. some clothes i have are fantastic and i look good-but others are just designed strangely. i feel better overall clothed-i don't like to see myself naked at all.
thanks for the love-i was so nervous about posting a set-as i said, i don't care much for my unexposed self. that's high praise coming from such a lovely girl as you! kiss

Friday Jan 30, 2004

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After watching some Vanessa Del Rio, I have decided that new porn sucks. Aside from the fact that I am kind of a Jenna Jameson whore (not just because of the obvious, but because she has become a spokesperson for STRONG females in the industry), these really old films are so hotter than anything i've seen in the last year. It's not just the ole...
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ally:
i have not heard of that tea, but the red tea tastes pretty sweet.....it's REALLY good.

mr_ruckus:
If and when I do watch porn, it usually is amateur stuff. I'm still an underground cat even when it comes to porn. That mainstream for lack of a better word porn bores me. It's women you will never run across and looks like a Victoria Secret commercial gwan 'ardcore!
puke

Thursday Jan 29, 2004

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One day I will have health insurance again! My teeth are killing me! Why are dentists so expensive? I am pretty blind in terms of crappy vision, but I can stil take my non-health-insured ass to the mall and get an eye exam, contacts, and glasses (the glasses cost more, but they are within my reach). Dentists charge an arm and an ass cheek just...
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reverendash:
Here's a hug, as requested. *tight hugs*

smile

-Ash skull

Turns me on? Blowing in my ear, playing with my hair, dirty talk

[Edited on Jan 29, 2004 4:13PM]
tigress:

KISSING! everywhere!

and here's your hug~ *HUG*

Tuesday Jan 27, 2004

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I wanted to post the pictures of my snow day, but I can't get them in my journal. Go look at my pics.

I am getting cabin fever since my little car doesn't do too well on ice.

I am seriously contemplating breaking up with my man. I am unhappy on a few different levels. It was great while it was great...He was expecting this...
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dragonflycq:
T-minus 4 days lady! love

Ok...fuck this shit...just dump him and come out with me on Monday free as a ball under Hugh Hefner's robe. There's a point at which where how much you don't like him is more than how much youdo. That's when you say, PEACE!!!! skull

I'm gonna try to make you a mix cd before I leave cuz I gots tons of shit you'd L love ve! But my burner may be totally fucked up. So I'm gonna see what I can do about gettin' you a Groundhogs Day present. wink
fortysix_and_two:
Sometimes it's the little things. Little things can turn into big things, if you find them intolerable. Been there, done that. And you're not being unreasonable to ask for courtesy, it can reflect a much bigger problem.

Monday Jan 26, 2004

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It's snowing. Today blows big time. My man is really assisting in the blow fest. You guys shoud just call me Loser for the duration of the time you are in contact with me. I can't seem to make anything work properly, whether it is my car slip-n-sliding through the intersection, interaction with my parents, or simple conversations with my man.

WHAT THE FUCK AM...
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pb:
eh, its not a question of right or wrong, its merely a question of when you last got laid and if it was nice or not.

you'd be suprised as to how a teeny little orgasm can change your perspective on things.

or it could be that everyone you interact with in life is actually a super-techno robot designed to torture you emotionally until they tire of the game and decide to play football with your head.

in my life, i tend to think its the latter, but when i tell people that they run away and its really embaressing.


-pb mad
nuclear_mullah:
Yeah I've felt all of that stuff before. If your man sucks, kick his ass to the goddam curb. Life is really way to fucking short to have sucky people that close to you. Move on. The family I guess you're stuck with, all of us are, but somehow we still love each other, right?

As for the snow. UGH. Can't wait for all this shit to melt.
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