puresauciness

I just typed a journal entry and the internet ate it.

fuck.

now you get a short summary.

*hung out with my boyfriend yesterday. All was wonderful. I understand all of the recent crap that we have been going through is not all my fault...it isn't really my fault at all, but my attitude and the way that I react to things wasn't really helping. His father has been in prison for 15 years and just came home about a week ago. He (my boyfriend) also has just recently gotten a new job and he has been working 6 days a week, pretty much 12 hour days for the most part. Add to that, he has a girlfriend who usually shares most of his free time and you get nasty emotional tension, hurt feelings, and disagreements (also add to that my penchant for Smirnoff Vodka to help me relax...not good for the arguements)
* I decided I need friends. I have one. She lives in Charlottesville and we only hang out MAYBE twice a month. This is not really healthy. I have absolutely no one else besides the boy. Making friends is NOT easy for me. I don't really know why. If I could figure out what it is, i'd fix it because I really would love some fucking company...this did not help the situation with my boy having absolutely no time for me.
* I am happy today
* I am feeling like I may want to go to church again sometime soon. That is both scary and exciting. I don't know....
* I love my family