puresauciness

I need help.

I am low.

I don't contemplate suicide anymore. I just contemplate running away.

I can't leave here because I have no where to go....

and I have met a really great guy who I don't want to leave.

I am so confused right now.

Confused, unemployed, money-less, and now I cannot go to school this semester.

I feel like my entire life I have been treading water. Every move that seems like progress really just completes a grotesque circle of discontent and misery.

i feel in my soul that I am capable of bigger things, but that feeling is buried deep deep deep deep deep deep
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I don't know who/where/why/how/when I am anymore.
i don't think i even want replies to this

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Edit:

Fuck it
Guess what, my nephew kicks ass! He is not even 2 yet and I have taught him (most of) his ABCs which he will not sing on demand in my little cheezy video.

And pics of the mural I am working on for my neighbors. This is in their dining room and it incorporates all the names of the family members....look! Depression CAN lead to some productivity.





*don't sweat it, i know you like the baby afro puff ponytail thing I'm rockin in the picture*