Wednesday Jan 07, 2004

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I am trying to remind myself that it is the journey, not the destination, that makes everything worthwile.....
I have been making a lot of shit lately (t-shirt prints, designs on wooden boxes, jewelry, designs for posters, clothes, etc.) and everyone is telling me how much talent i have. Talent is nothing without confidence and mine seems to be fleeting. I can only be confident in 15 minute increments. Then it's like blah! The crap is reinforced by the fact that I am feeling like a fat cow. I want so badly to be comfortable in my own skin. Yesterday morning my boyfriend put my jeans on by accident. The only way you could tell that they were mine is that they fit MUCH slimmer on the legs than his normal "urban fit" allows for. Seriously, they completely fit. Not tight or anything. That is so gross. Seriously, I am mildly active and I don't gorge on bad shit. He is not a small guy. I am sooooo not happy about this.
I am supposed to be bold, confident, self-assured and above all else STRONG. why am i a weak pussy? puke
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fortysix_and_two:
I work for a used game store, normally as a salesperson but somehow I've fallen into all the duties of a manager. Orders, returns, payroll, paperwork, organizing and decorating... but it's still a fun job.
lonewolf:
so the show in SF was pretty good, thing is Brady was only in like three parts, def not enough, shes why I even went. Her sets where nice she played a punk fighting a cheerleader, than did the last scene where all the girls poured chocolate on each other and wrestled around, pretty cool. I think I was the only dread there and maybe only black guy that wasnt working there, but it was all cool.

Hope all is well with you, stay shining
One Love

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