I have been working like a madwoman these past couple of days. There has been this surreal peace that has come along with it...like extreme satisfaction at positively working myself into nothingness. Oh wait, I know what that's about...work drowns out all of the frustration and unsure feelings that I am having about every OTHER aspect of my life.
Here's the scenario: I am 23 and perpetually poised on the brink of success. There is something beautiful, fulfilling, and satisfying at the bottom, but I never ever dive. I continually walk (or run) away, or choose some path that diverts me from my real goal and intention. I am attempting to take one full semester at community college and transfer into a university to pursue my artistic/creative dreams. I have always lived here in VA (IN THE SAME HOUSE!) for my entire life. Parts of me want to move on and travel, learn new places, and experience new things. But then other parts of me (fear, procrastination) cling to the old comfort zones. The conversation with my "friend" kinda changed things too because we were going to do some things together (we were going to move together to wherever she was going to grad school). Now I am alone again. It is so much easier to not be afraid and to move forward when you are not alone.
Blaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh.
On a better note, LinkinPark is coming to DC on 1/16/03. I get presale access to tix one day before the general public because i'm special...what sux about this is that I have no one to go with. I'll buy tix and hope for a miracle. Maybe some random sexy girl/guy will fall madly in lust/love with me before then and provide me with rockin, sexy company
a girl can dream, right?
Here's the scenario: I am 23 and perpetually poised on the brink of success. There is something beautiful, fulfilling, and satisfying at the bottom, but I never ever dive. I continually walk (or run) away, or choose some path that diverts me from my real goal and intention. I am attempting to take one full semester at community college and transfer into a university to pursue my artistic/creative dreams. I have always lived here in VA (IN THE SAME HOUSE!) for my entire life. Parts of me want to move on and travel, learn new places, and experience new things. But then other parts of me (fear, procrastination) cling to the old comfort zones. The conversation with my "friend" kinda changed things too because we were going to do some things together (we were going to move together to wherever she was going to grad school). Now I am alone again. It is so much easier to not be afraid and to move forward when you are not alone.
Blaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh.
On a better note, LinkinPark is coming to DC on 1/16/03. I get presale access to tix one day before the general public because i'm special...what sux about this is that I have no one to go with. I'll buy tix and hope for a miracle. Maybe some random sexy girl/guy will fall madly in lust/love with me before then and provide me with rockin, sexy company
a girl can dream, right?
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So my advice is go for it girl.
[Edited on Dec 11, 2003 3:52PM]
i should probably feel ok about this since i am trying to make you feel better about your rental woes...anyway if you move down here i can get you in on the *gulp* good deals.