So yes yes. Lack of profile/pics etc.
On purpose.
For the last year or so I've had it all up (yep, even an sb set) so I've decided to try the opposite for a little while.
Something different.
I've come to realize that the exterior I've given, tried to define, even rationalize (*choke*) is not who I am. Honestly, in the last little while I've been doing everything in my power to avoid trying to figure out what I want/need/justify - it seems daunting and terrifying and necessary all at once. However, it doesn't mean proscrastinating or delaying will make the end result any more or less important or (dis)satifying; the opposite is probably closer to the truth - whatever the hell that is.
Maybe I should just shut the fuck up for once and listen to other people.
On purpose.
For the last year or so I've had it all up (yep, even an sb set) so I've decided to try the opposite for a little while.
Something different.
I've come to realize that the exterior I've given, tried to define, even rationalize (*choke*) is not who I am. Honestly, in the last little while I've been doing everything in my power to avoid trying to figure out what I want/need/justify - it seems daunting and terrifying and necessary all at once. However, it doesn't mean proscrastinating or delaying will make the end result any more or less important or (dis)satifying; the opposite is probably closer to the truth - whatever the hell that is.
Maybe I should just shut the fuck up for once and listen to other people.
as for me. she is coming over to spend the night. she wants to have a girl's night in. we are going to make cookies and my famous oolong tea. i promised to brush her hair and give her a foot massage. crap i haveta change my sheets too.
and yes, i came clean and told her i have a crush on her. she knows it. she wants to be swept off of her feet, and i want to be swept off mine. we are at an impasse of sorts.
instead, i will play friendly and watch her go to NYC. she will be back after the summer. i just don't have a fucking clue do i.
i am robotik.