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The 1st of July tommorrow
How the.. Where.. Time fuckin flies!
Leaving me with only 28 days until I turn 21, key the the house, or whatever that signifies now, I moved outta home age 16... . .
Seeing as legal drinking age is 18 in NZ over clubbing/gambling etc nothing new
Hmm... Probably not the best time to update here as feeling a little low and all the things I'd hoped to be by 21 just aren't *sigh* no degree and no direction
When I was a teenager 21 seemed so grown up
Overall I think im happy. Maybe. The strong friendships I'd had since high school have faded, people moved away and drifted apart. Don't have much in common or click with new people I've met. Apart from my boyfriend who I love whole-heartedly do miss girl time and before broken relationships with mates. Lonely
Health is sitting on the fence, could be a lot worse, atlhough id like it to be a lot better
Confidence.. .. .. Nowhere near where it used to be?! Image.. Work in progress.
I don't have that strong sense of self or self belief, my individuality has taken a back seat (mainly due to self esteem loss) everyone is responsible for their own happines
I want to be my best friend ya know love yourself before others will love you
Feeling lost right now?
Heres a quote I read at the gym:
SUCCESS IS;
To laugh often and much, To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition, To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have suceeded