About the girls on this site... I wish they wouldn't (leave) get archived, just when I am starting to enjoy them. I would like some things to stay constant in my life and why can't it be them? I guess I was not welped properly, because I get panicky when people head for the door.
I just woke up from a "where the hell are you?" dream to find him snoring next to me. Adults were always saying I was going to develope problems with men stemming from my parents' divorce... it seems evil of them to say that to a kid, doesn't it? But I do have a perpetual lonliness that I've developed in the last several years and I wonder if that's the reason I've been bringing up marriage and a baby lately.
Lately, I am happy again. Every time I say that, it's bound to change rapidly. However sadly. No happily ever afters on my planet.
I just woke up from a "where the hell are you?" dream to find him snoring next to me. Adults were always saying I was going to develope problems with men stemming from my parents' divorce... it seems evil of them to say that to a kid, doesn't it? But I do have a perpetual lonliness that I've developed in the last several years and I wonder if that's the reason I've been bringing up marriage and a baby lately.
Lately, I am happy again. Every time I say that, it's bound to change rapidly. However sadly. No happily ever afters on my planet.
My parents divorced too.
It skewed my opinions of relationships a little. And I did have a fear of abandonment. But part of the healing process from my divorce was learning to deal with loss and abandonment.
Take it slow. And don't sabotage yourself. I hate to sound like a self-help book, but, don't doubt that you are deserving of happiness.
Good luck with everything.
We still tried to have a bonfire. Got it lit, but the rain came again and chased us back inside. It's all good. Just chilled inside.
I ate crap yesterday and today.