Time for short blog me thinks.
Over the past week i've decencded into a deep depression, I thought I was going insane and heading to mental institute or worse maybe even kill myself. I was driving myself mad over letting my ex go and what had happened since the break up.
Today I think I really turned a corner today though, my grief and desperation turned into a great shame for my behaviour since we broke up, but I wasn't in my right mind at all, depression and love affect you enough normally, but together they make you say and do some remarkably stupid things. Also when your girlfriend is also your best friend, the 2 people you turn to in a crisis, doesn't want to talk to you, you feel so completely alone in world.
Shame is a lot better than severe desperation so I'm keeping my mood up this week with a week long Lord of the Rings Extended Edition marathon
Normally I would do this in a day or two we had free with her, she was the only I could openly indulge my geeky side with, none of friends who live within a hundred miles of me would be up for such an epic task so I'm dragging it out across the week to keep me from slipping again.
It sucks so massively having no one to enjoy this stuff with anymore, it just leaves such a big hole.
Over the past week i've decencded into a deep depression, I thought I was going insane and heading to mental institute or worse maybe even kill myself. I was driving myself mad over letting my ex go and what had happened since the break up.
Today I think I really turned a corner today though, my grief and desperation turned into a great shame for my behaviour since we broke up, but I wasn't in my right mind at all, depression and love affect you enough normally, but together they make you say and do some remarkably stupid things. Also when your girlfriend is also your best friend, the 2 people you turn to in a crisis, doesn't want to talk to you, you feel so completely alone in world.
Shame is a lot better than severe desperation so I'm keeping my mood up this week with a week long Lord of the Rings Extended Edition marathon
Normally I would do this in a day or two we had free with her, she was the only I could openly indulge my geeky side with, none of friends who live within a hundred miles of me would be up for such an epic task so I'm dragging it out across the week to keep me from slipping again.
It sucks so massively having no one to enjoy this stuff with anymore, it just leaves such a big hole.
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And thankyou!
I blame getting all excited over The Hobbit, last weekend here was devoted to my extended cuts