So I'm really hoping I've finally started to get my life back in gear (touch wood)
I am eating again just about as of today, actually having 1 normal sized meal and and another half sized, also having ate a few bits yesterday. I went for a meal with my Grandmother, my cousin, his boyfriend and female best friend (who I really got along with...
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I am eating again just about as of today, actually having 1 normal sized meal and and another half sized, also having ate a few bits yesterday. I went for a meal with my Grandmother, my cousin, his boyfriend and female best friend (who I really got along with...
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_paganpisces_:
*pouts* I'm sorry love.
_paganpisces_:
I hope you managed some. I only got about 4 hours. Maybe.. If I'm lucky I can take a nap when I get home. 
So I've probably just had the hardest and worst week of my life, (read my last blog to know what caused it, I can't repeat it again) I hadn't eaten a meal since sunday and that was my only meal of the day, I ate a biscuit a day until last night when I had some bread and a Kitkat, today I've had cereal and...
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sofarsogood:
Hope things get better for you! Try to think more about paintball than females right now. My bf plays and I have heard of your team name before, but didn't realize there are different ones in different countries! I tagged your blog since I saw that.
sofarsogood:
he isn't on a team atm. they're working out sponsorships still. i think next year or something. i remember now why fearless sounded familiar... not a team, but a pb park. my mistake. have you heard of the website pbnation?
So this is fucking shit! Just found out my ex is seeing someone new, the worst part is it's the one prick I was paranoid was the real reason she left me all along! Whilst I'm sure nothing went one while we were together, it's only taken her 3 fucking months for her to get over me and I'm sure they started much sooner based...
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_paganpisces_:
Aww baby, you make it too easy 
It takes disaster to learn a lesson. You're gonna make it through the darkest night.
Some people betray one and cause treason. We're gonna make everything alright.
It takes disaster to learn a lesson. You're gonna make it through the darkest night.
Some people betray one and cause treason. We're gonna make everything alright.
_paganpisces_:
It is a good song. I think it would make a great tattoo. Words to live by
ohhh and the cookie, you should find out
ohhh and the cookie, you should find out
In 1 hour I will embark on the greatest undertaking of our time.....
Ok that's an exaggeration but in 1 hour I will be leaving to drive through the night for Paris to compete in the European Paintball World Cup. I'm aware "European" is an odd word but there's 3 companies worldwide that I know that host an end of season event called "World Cup",...
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Ok that's an exaggeration but in 1 hour I will be leaving to drive through the night for Paris to compete in the European Paintball World Cup. I'm aware "European" is an odd word but there's 3 companies worldwide that I know that host an end of season event called "World Cup",...
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_paganpisces_:
Watched for a bit this morning. That friend I mentioned is watching too, he's pretty impressed.
Pitch looks awfully wet, hope the weather clears.
Pitch looks awfully wet, hope the weather clears.
_paganpisces_:
Well that sucks. I hope you make it through. At least you got a mini holiday out of it
Time for a Rage blog!
Currently I'm so angry with my ex, I eventually managed to contact her through a mutual friend who's more my friend than hers and the only response he gets to tell me get to my very reasonable request for a chat is "I don't want to talk you". We had agreed not to talk for a month over a month...
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Currently I'm so angry with my ex, I eventually managed to contact her through a mutual friend who's more my friend than hers and the only response he gets to tell me get to my very reasonable request for a chat is "I don't want to talk you". We had agreed not to talk for a month over a month...
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_paganpisces_:
It's a 20 hour drive, 1,500 miles give or take. It's not just the distance for me. I don't really get along well with other girls. I hate drama and cattyness. I like straight forward people who don't over-dramatize e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g., who just want to go out and have fun, maybe get into some trouble 
Never as a teenager did I have girlfriends, it took forever. Luckily a few hours from me lives a friend I grew up with. From kindergarten through middle school. So she knows my secrets ...lol Hopefully we can reconnect and I can have someone to hang out, get dressed up and paint the town with
And this handsome guy rawking his hawk is Nathan, I loves him dearly. He's a huge flirt, and the sweetest boy ever.
Never as a teenager did I have girlfriends, it took forever. Luckily a few hours from me lives a friend I grew up with. From kindergarten through middle school. So she knows my secrets ...lol Hopefully we can reconnect and I can have someone to hang out, get dressed up and paint the town with And this handsome guy rawking his hawk is Nathan, I loves him dearly. He's a huge flirt, and the sweetest boy ever.
_paganpisces_:
Definitely, never been a fan of the girly girl type. I was never in a clique, all my friends were guys. I could out talk them in sports and music.
But that was one of the reason I was pissy this week and had a sad. *SpoiIered for rant*
But that was one of the reason I was pissy this week and had a sad. *SpoiIered for rant*
She's my level, my boss hadn't said shit. I dress cut, I always have a vintagey pinupish top on, sometimes with a cardigan..and she focusses on my wallet and shoes? Good thing she didn't see my heavy leather studded belt 
I'm sure they will be adorable! I find kids like being different, I'm sure you won't have to force them
If you've read my profile you'll know that I currently have no tattoos but really want some, the problem is I just can't decide what I want. I have a few ideas but nothing I'm settled on.
One I am quite confident I want is flames coming down one of my upper arms, the flames starting at the top and pointing down my arm, I...
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One I am quite confident I want is flames coming down one of my upper arms, the flames starting at the top and pointing down my arm, I...
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_paganpisces_:
I'm sorry. I'm glad I could be of help though. Dreams have a way of manifesting all your fears.
I wish I could watch!
I'm sorry. I'm glad I could be of help though. Dreams have a way of manifesting all your fears. I wish I could watch!
pop up completely unknown and fuck up their entire other side of the field.
I would love to see this. My friend is a mercenary. Which makes sense. He's a big boy 6"3, 180 or in brit speak 190cm and 13 stone.
_paganpisces_:
I hope you sleep well.
Sweet dreams
Sweet dreams
I'm determined to beat this wretched depression, but these days I have more mood swings than a pregnant woman (I don't mean that in an at all sexist way), one minute I'm quite joyful, the next I don't feel like I can go on, but the fact that I can feel good is a positive sign.
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One thought that does give me strength is knowing...
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_paganpisces_:
You need something positive to wake up to, something to take your mind off of everything else. Keeping busy helps too.
It was just as boring as I thought it would be. I spent a good part of the day on the phone with the help desk..ohh joy!
I wanna go to Paris! Well actually not really I'd rather go to London. Hell, I'd go to Prague before venturing to Paris. I looked it up, the series looks awesome! Which division are you in?
It was just as boring as I thought it would be. I spent a good part of the day on the phone with the help desk..ohh joy!
I wanna go to Paris! Well actually not really
I'd rather go to London. Hell, I'd go to Prague before venturing to Paris. I looked it up, the series looks awesome! Which division are you in?
_paganpisces_:
You need a distraction!
Onwards and upwards I've done PR for events, selling oneself is always the hardest. How are you doing sponsorship wise? What are you doing to put yourselves out there? Sometimes newer is better. You all (your team) have a fresh look, a fresh perspective, not the same old same old..That can be a great advantage.
I"m a PMR for the USPS. PMR stands for Postmaster Relief. I go into offices that don't currently have a Postmaster and run them until the get one. I move from office to office. Current one is quite a drive but I get reimbursed for mileage. You?
Onwards and upwards
I've done PR for events, selling oneself is always the hardest. How are you doing sponsorship wise? What are you doing to put yourselves out there? Sometimes newer is better. You all (your team) have a fresh look, a fresh perspective, not the same old same old..That can be a great advantage.I"m a PMR for the USPS. PMR stands for Postmaster Relief. I go into offices that don't currently have a Postmaster and run them until the get one. I move from office to office. Current one is quite a drive but I get reimbursed for mileage. You?
I quite like this blogging thing, it's very good venting my thought in a more healthy way, as is the conversation that arises, when I'm talking to someone I don't know at all or not very well it clears my head. I find it very interesting and exciting learning about someone and interacting with new people means my head is taking in interesting information and...
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_paganpisces_:
Oh indeed I do! Though depending on the person and the relationship, time can flow faster rather than slow.
I'm mostly looking forward to it so I can get lost in the world, lost in the landscape and lost in the characters I grew up reading about. Nerd I am
Random conversations with random people is how I met some of my closest friends. You'd be surprised what people will tell a complete stranger compared to what they would tell their friends and family.
I'm mostly looking forward to it so I can get lost in the world, lost in the landscape and lost in the characters I grew up reading about. Nerd I am
Random conversations with random people is how I met some of my closest friends. You'd be surprised what people will tell a complete stranger compared to what they would tell their friends and family.
_paganpisces_:
Those were the days? Nothing more recent?
I get it though, I can be horribly shy. The interwebs are helpful that way.
I get it though, I can be horribly shy. The interwebs are helpful that way.
Time for short blog me thinks.
Over the past week i've decencded into a deep depression, I thought I was going insane and heading to mental institute or worse maybe even kill myself. I was driving myself mad over letting my ex go and what had happened since the break up.
Today I think I really turned a corner today though, my grief and desperation...
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Over the past week i've decencded into a deep depression, I thought I was going insane and heading to mental institute or worse maybe even kill myself. I was driving myself mad over letting my ex go and what had happened since the break up.
Today I think I really turned a corner today though, my grief and desperation...
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changeling_:
Nope, never seen them :') Always wanted to but all I have are the normal, unextended movies.. but I've read the books so there's not really any holes. Maybe I'll get to borrow some copies off some friends in the future or something.
And thankyou!
And thankyou!
_paganpisces_:
Time, time heals. That's my pearl.
I blame getting all excited over The Hobbit, last weekend here was devoted to my extended cuts
I blame getting all excited over The Hobbit, last weekend here was devoted to my extended cuts
Time for a positive blog, I'll talk about the best thing in my life right now, Paintballing!
Now when I say I paintball I don't mean running round the woods playing soldiers on a stag do or birthday. There is a format played as a legitmate sport no less so then football or tennis. We play on an astro-turf or grass field, the barricade are...
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Now when I say I paintball I don't mean running round the woods playing soldiers on a stag do or birthday. There is a format played as a legitmate sport no less so then football or tennis. We play on an astro-turf or grass field, the barricade are...
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Never done a blog before, but here it goes. I don't really know where to start so I'll start from the obvious point, my last relationship and the break up.
Before I start i'm going to make it clear that i'm not going to be that guy who's always moaning about his ex, or always obsessing over her, i'm for a positive new start to...
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Before I start i'm going to make it clear that i'm not going to be that guy who's always moaning about his ex, or always obsessing over her, i'm for a positive new start to...
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niobe:
Break ups suck. I am newly out of a relationship too.
*hugs*
PS comment back in the blog of the person that left you a comment so they know you replied.
*hugs*
PS comment back in the blog of the person that left you a comment so they know you replied.
niobe:
Not much I guess.