Update time again.
Well its wednesday, the weather is bloody bootifull, and I have my shirt off whilst enjoying some much needed sunshine.
Unfortunately, I still feel like a complete bastard from Saturday....
For the past cpl of weekends, me and steph ( friend from London ) have been kinda friendly. Steph's a brilliant girl, shes funny, hyperactive, gorgeous, and the kind of woman who I would usually expect to run a mile rather than be with me. She's off to Bristol in August/September and I dont know what the hell im doing with my life and my company, so we both knew that it'd just be fun, and we couldn't have anything but that. I thought that we were both ok with things like that, but I found out on the weekend that I was wrong.
I feel so bad now, because Steph expects something from me that I cant give her.
Im off to Australia soon, i've got my company to sort out, I work stupid hours and never have hardly any time for anyone else, and im just not ready to have someone else in my life right now.
I've know steph for 6months and she's a lovely girl, but I dont know anything about her. Apart from the fact that she obvioussly needs her eyes checked!!! She's amazing, she's got fashion sense, hell she even has an IQ over 50!!!
If the truth be told, it's not JUST the fact that I haven't got the time, hell you can always make time for love, but its also the fact that I dont want to put my faith into someone again only to have her rip my heart out, shove it down my throat, and get on a plane back to canada whilst pregnant. I dont love Steph, and im not willing to chance it to find out if I will do later on.
Hmm, im not sure how easily that reads... cpl of bongs to calm me down seem to have destroyed my ability to make sense .
On a happy note, my bearings are fixed, the sun is out, im getting a tan, and more blue hair dye arrived today so I can finally sort my sham of a head!!
Take care all
Well its wednesday, the weather is bloody bootifull, and I have my shirt off whilst enjoying some much needed sunshine.
Unfortunately, I still feel like a complete bastard from Saturday....
For the past cpl of weekends, me and steph ( friend from London ) have been kinda friendly. Steph's a brilliant girl, shes funny, hyperactive, gorgeous, and the kind of woman who I would usually expect to run a mile rather than be with me. She's off to Bristol in August/September and I dont know what the hell im doing with my life and my company, so we both knew that it'd just be fun, and we couldn't have anything but that. I thought that we were both ok with things like that, but I found out on the weekend that I was wrong.
I feel so bad now, because Steph expects something from me that I cant give her.
Im off to Australia soon, i've got my company to sort out, I work stupid hours and never have hardly any time for anyone else, and im just not ready to have someone else in my life right now.
I've know steph for 6months and she's a lovely girl, but I dont know anything about her. Apart from the fact that she obvioussly needs her eyes checked!!! She's amazing, she's got fashion sense, hell she even has an IQ over 50!!!
If the truth be told, it's not JUST the fact that I haven't got the time, hell you can always make time for love, but its also the fact that I dont want to put my faith into someone again only to have her rip my heart out, shove it down my throat, and get on a plane back to canada whilst pregnant. I dont love Steph, and im not willing to chance it to find out if I will do later on.
Hmm, im not sure how easily that reads... cpl of bongs to calm me down seem to have destroyed my ability to make sense .
On a happy note, my bearings are fixed, the sun is out, im getting a tan, and more blue hair dye arrived today so I can finally sort my sham of a head!!
Take care all
da1sy:
Making a promise like that is NEVER a good idea, I'll hold you to it!