punky17

"there are things known, and things unkown, and in between are the doors"
Jim Morrison

lately i have been in the weirdest of moods... it seems like one second i am happy with they way things are.. then the next i am frustrated for no apparent reason.. and from the peoples journals that i have read everybody seems to be in a purpetual daze, even reading them it seemed as if time was moving backwards. i feel bad and relate to all the journals of yours that i have read, and even though i have not met any of you, and know you only by your alias' i feel as if i have wronged everyone in some way simply through my inaction.. although there is nothing that i can do...

sleep is not much easier. i keep having the same nightmare, the same dream for about a month now... weird eh. i am kneeling in a fountain of mud.. i feel helpless, lost, and betrayed by feelings i never knew existed.

the only real bonus that has come out of my ways for the past month is that my eyes are opening, i am writing i am drawing, i am creating i love it! i also know what has to be done with me, and what i have to do to get somewhere else.. well away from the me that i know currently, i need to take schooling, i have a lust for knowledge that i am neglecting.. i never thought i would say that but hey....

as for schooling i have no ideas on what to take so any imput would met with great appreciation... and yeah i guess thats all for now..

.. sean ..