So0o0o...I'm not very happy about this one bit. How could someone be so physically attracted to someone else that it completely takes over your mind, body, and soul if you can't have them? Im talking about true fucking lust.
I have the most incredible sexual attraction to my husband. This should be a good thing...right?
I feel like it is more of a curse! I want it every night...but hardly get it once a week! Especially now that I am pregnant i want it more than ever but can never seem to get it! No matter how hard I try! I know he doesn't do it on purpose...He is tired and wants to sleep. But at the same time it makes me SO MAD when he comes home and the only time we actually spend together is when I make him dinner and we eat in the same room. Tho the TV is on whatever he wants to watch and after that show is over he is on the computer til he goes to bed. When he finally comes in and is about to pass out I'll try to get some action but he says he is too tired. I feel more and more like if he just didn't go on the god dammed computer for so long or if the TV wasn't the main focus of his "winding down" time....or even if he could find 10 freaking minutes to give to me a day....or maybe if I wasn't the one chasing tail all the time and he was interested in me...ah! I'm just so upset. I'm emotionally disconnected from him and something physical would really help right about now.
There are nights where I just want to wake him up by slapping him across the face! It makes me so mad...I just want a little attention. I'm not really sure how to get it anymore... I'm about ready to give up. Seriously...As pathetic as it sounds. I'm about to give up on sex. I can't pleasure myself...and there is obviously no time for me from my husband... what else is there but to admit defeat?!
Ya know, after this baby is born my "friend" comes back for quite some time and after that I'm pretty sure there Will be even LESS of a chance to be intimate (if any at all). I know what you all must be thinking....what a bitch, right? There is something you have to understand about me before you roll your eyes in disgust...
I am a very emotion person, my only release from my emotions and stress is through being intimate. It's just how I have been since my husband and I have been together. Before him, I had no release and I was always fucked up, picking fights just to get attention, etc. So you see, now that this baby is coming EXTREMELY SOON and everything in my world is upside down...I just need a little intimate attention to get me through. I have tried talking to him, writing him about it, even texting him. Nothing works. I am so supportive with everything I do with him and I try my hardest to do whatever I can to make sure his stress is under control.
But at this point...who is there to help me?
I'm sad
gotta put something funny
I have the most incredible sexual attraction to my husband. This should be a good thing...right?
I feel like it is more of a curse! I want it every night...but hardly get it once a week! Especially now that I am pregnant i want it more than ever but can never seem to get it! No matter how hard I try! I know he doesn't do it on purpose...He is tired and wants to sleep. But at the same time it makes me SO MAD when he comes home and the only time we actually spend together is when I make him dinner and we eat in the same room. Tho the TV is on whatever he wants to watch and after that show is over he is on the computer til he goes to bed. When he finally comes in and is about to pass out I'll try to get some action but he says he is too tired. I feel more and more like if he just didn't go on the god dammed computer for so long or if the TV wasn't the main focus of his "winding down" time....or even if he could find 10 freaking minutes to give to me a day....or maybe if I wasn't the one chasing tail all the time and he was interested in me...ah! I'm just so upset. I'm emotionally disconnected from him and something physical would really help right about now.
There are nights where I just want to wake him up by slapping him across the face! It makes me so mad...I just want a little attention. I'm not really sure how to get it anymore... I'm about ready to give up. Seriously...As pathetic as it sounds. I'm about to give up on sex. I can't pleasure myself...and there is obviously no time for me from my husband... what else is there but to admit defeat?!
Ya know, after this baby is born my "friend" comes back for quite some time and after that I'm pretty sure there Will be even LESS of a chance to be intimate (if any at all). I know what you all must be thinking....what a bitch, right? There is something you have to understand about me before you roll your eyes in disgust...
I am a very emotion person, my only release from my emotions and stress is through being intimate. It's just how I have been since my husband and I have been together. Before him, I had no release and I was always fucked up, picking fights just to get attention, etc. So you see, now that this baby is coming EXTREMELY SOON and everything in my world is upside down...I just need a little intimate attention to get me through. I have tried talking to him, writing him about it, even texting him. Nothing works. I am so supportive with everything I do with him and I try my hardest to do whatever I can to make sure his stress is under control.
But at this point...who is there to help me?
I'm sad
gotta put something funny