Right now as of now I am listening to Righteous Brothers- Unchained Melody, and it made me think of all this shit thats wrong with me and how I miss some people, and someone in particular.
So Ive realized how alone I really am.
The reason I have noticed this is because I feel empty inside and alone, I have also realized that I suck at relationships, every realtionship that I have ever been in has ended either bad or just plain horribly. Well except for one relationship with this guy named Jude, I didnt do anything wrong in this relationship, he just didnt wanna be with me, because I wansnt good enough for him thats all.
The reason I say I suck at relationships is because I was this guy named James, all around he was a pretty decent guy, just a little obsessive, like wanting me to spend all my time with him all the time, and staying at the end of my street at like 4:00 am in the morning watching if I went to hang out with my friends or not, but I was kinda mean to him after awhile, I got sick of his bull shit. So he broke up with me countless times and I kept going back to him like an idiot, but finally I told him I cant be with you anymore!, thats it I'm done! Then I started missing him alot, so I tried it one more time with him, but I just realized I can not commite myself to anyone right now, I just wanna party right now, I just wanna maybe find a fuck-buddie/friends with benefits whatever you wanna call it. So James was cool
with it, then all of a sudden hes like I cant see anymore, so its like whatever lol anyways I guess this wasnt about how horrible I am in relationships. It was me just ranting lol.
So anyways tonight I have so many things I can do, I can other go to show or hang out at my friend phils, hmm decisions, decisions. I'll figure it out later. So what
up with you people? Anyways get back to me.
So Ive realized how alone I really am.
The reason I have noticed this is because I feel empty inside and alone, I have also realized that I suck at relationships, every realtionship that I have ever been in has ended either bad or just plain horribly. Well except for one relationship with this guy named Jude, I didnt do anything wrong in this relationship, he just didnt wanna be with me, because I wansnt good enough for him thats all.
The reason I say I suck at relationships is because I was this guy named James, all around he was a pretty decent guy, just a little obsessive, like wanting me to spend all my time with him all the time, and staying at the end of my street at like 4:00 am in the morning watching if I went to hang out with my friends or not, but I was kinda mean to him after awhile, I got sick of his bull shit. So he broke up with me countless times and I kept going back to him like an idiot, but finally I told him I cant be with you anymore!, thats it I'm done! Then I started missing him alot, so I tried it one more time with him, but I just realized I can not commite myself to anyone right now, I just wanna party right now, I just wanna maybe find a fuck-buddie/friends with benefits whatever you wanna call it. So James was cool
with it, then all of a sudden hes like I cant see anymore, so its like whatever lol anyways I guess this wasnt about how horrible I am in relationships. It was me just ranting lol.
So anyways tonight I have so many things I can do, I can other go to show or hang out at my friend phils, hmm decisions, decisions. I'll figure it out later. So what
up with you people? Anyways get back to me.
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[Edited on Jun 05, 2006 8:31PM]