punkoff

In a world of pain i am scared. being scared is being in pain. without pain i am nothing but a mere prototype of human waste. Where is the line between not feeling pain and feeling good about yourself. When youve felt pain for so long its a strange feeling to feel "alright". All of a sudden certain doors will open and you half to choose which route you wanna take. you can choose one that causes complete self destruction or the one that brings you temporary happiness. But as we all know nothing is forever once thought about. There is no right choice, choose your poison. I am scared of what this world brings upon me and fall silent and redundant. There is nothing to be understood. Not a solid answer I can rest my head on. I have no faith in the world and i have no faith in myself. Faith has let me down yet its something i cannot live without especially in my world. So i put my hands in the air and i ask whats next?